NEW layout :)

HEHE.
Lyrics , you and me gotta good thing going on, like a classic love song. are from ..
the song, classic love song by Syleena Johnson feat Jermaine Dupri
lawa song it is. DOWNLOAD IT NOW! :)

the layouts pretty messy and not very nice. but this is for the mean time only until i can think of a proper layout (the screaming girl was getiing anoyying).
Comments anyone?

Carrie has a brillant new layout! go check it out! :)
Going out with agnes later to watch zathura. maybe or corpse bride again. cos agnes hasnt watched it before. duno lahs. :S but yeh. short notice since im already out and wearing 3 quarter pants :S. oh well.

SOMEONE, ANYONE COMMENT ON LAYOUT PLS. TELL ME IF ITS THAT UGLY??! damnit.

Ok thanks to..
Nadia,
Angel.
Carrie,
Garrieee. for tagging.
I lover you all <333 HEHE.
sorry if i missed others out.

I got a new link :P, Wendy and she has a very nice layout too! :)
ok. i'll go now thenn.

LOVER YOU GUYS ALLL BANYAK BANYAKKKKK ;
Amelia.
and i told him, i dont want to lose you. :S

Nativity Play.

Went to the nativity play last night at my school.
met up with agnes and rebecca and angel :)
*flashback*
Me: (sees rebecca starts waving)
Becky: (sees me wakes back and proceeds to walk forward)
Becky's mom: (walks with becky, reaches and says) WAH, amelia. Why are you so fat now?
Me: (sad) REALLLY? im fatter?
Becky's mom: Yes you are. chubbier infact.
Becky: MOMMMM.
Me: BEx am i reallly fat???? :(
Becky: no, your not.
Me: Maybe its cos im wearing two layers.
Becky: yes THATS the reason.
Me: ok. i shall ask angel and sophia and agnes if im fat.
Becky: -.- ok. you do that.
AND I DID. but noone sed i was fat??? :'( lol. BUT I AM. rebecca's mom sed so.
damnit. stupid diet not working. %@#&^@%$#O$
saw lots of ppl that i wont bother to mention ;p
Story line wasnt that good. No idea what was going actuallly :S, more of a love story??? -.-"
and alot of disney songs. i wonder why. HMM.
The dances were nice very egyptian like :)
and the constumes were ALL very preeeettttttie.
Was quite long. form 7+ to 10+.
After show saw the two karens ;) and met miss pushpa and judith and esther and aaron and eric.
then i went home.

PICTURESSS (blur, im sorrry :P)
Taken BY ANGEL with my camera. Blur cos of the flash according to angel butt :P


the purple dance XD



Some random guys talking :S


OOO. DIANA is in this scene. she;s the purple lady. the one in the middle? :P


er, the red dance. :)


dont kno what this is. too blur to see. actually the pictures from here onwards shall be blur. But i will post them up anyway :)


THis is where the princess and that guy talks. princess - rebecca thien and guy - aaron lim.



another picture of them. with the additional jordine behind :p


they were singing "when you believe"


big group of people talking.


TALK MORRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEE .


some people have so much to talk about HMM.


An angel of some kind.dancing. :)


the white dance.


the finale. :)


first try ..


HOORAY. :P nes, me and bex. :)

So thats all the pictures.
Was supposed to go out today with nes and bex. but cant :S i'll be jogging l8r. then tonight. i dunno. BLEH. boring ok?

Nuthing much.
CORPSE BRIDE was nice. alot of singing :D. hehehe and funny too.
Abit creepy in some parts but its nice :).
um. yes i think this will be all.
Toodles dahlengs.

<3,
Amelia.
you&me got a good thing going on ..

the very late blog.

HELLO HELLO.
I'm surprised ppl still visit my site since its very outdated and i havent changed the layout in ages. :S I'll get to it !
I just dont kno what layout i shud do. :S any ideas?
hmm. ok i promised the sexy handy wowan or in other words fcukgel that i will blog today.
BUT.
I'm feeling lazy very lazy. AND.
Im watching corpse bride l8r with my brother and 2 cuzzens. (yay me).
HEHE i've been waiting for 4 months now. and its here. so i'm pretttty much happpy. :)
I WILL DO SOME RANDOM BLOG ABT SOMETHING IM NOT HAPPY ABOUT.
meanwhile. er. ok nevermind.
SO CYA TOMORRROW. might be going to nativity play tonight too. :)
SO. tomorrow blog ok.
SORRY FCUKGEL.

<3,
Amelia.
noone knows who i really am.

ANSWERs

HELLO. watched the notebook (reaLLLY sad ending :'( ) and in her shoes (which was OK. not bad la)

THese are the answers to the puzzle you know, the grow cube thingy.
Courtesy of GARY :)

1.Little people
2.water
3.Orange,yellow and green plants.
4.Brown pot
5.Blue tube
6.Fire
7.The white plate/dish
8.bone
9.Spring
10.Ball

Replies;
Carrie: the answers are there (points above)
Angel: yes we shall talk again ;) and i did update. :D
Gary, Jiayean and the rest: HI and thnks for visiting ;) and tagging of course. ^^

<3,
fcukame.
(dont ask me how i got that) its fcukgel and my little secret :P:P HEHE

The Notebook.

.. i watched it halfway cos i wanna cont the rest tomorrow in the office So fat, its a reallly touching movie.>.<
I bought "in your shoes" dvd today. watching it tomorrow afternoon AFTER the notebok.
My brother is coming bk tomorrow. yay-ness. Now i wuden be TOO lonely at home but of course that'll mean less time on the fone and the computer and more time on the piano. -.- boo-ness.

Oh well. daddy brought back some bah kua yesterday from his friend who just came bk from singapore and i haven been eating them constantly. =\ i kno. diet diet diet. but its yummy ok. >.< er yes.
I have got nothing else to say now. but ..

" HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY MEI " you're finally the same age like me! :P
and happy 15th to cody. not that he visits me of course. but yeah :P

Replies;
Angel: i dont like fishing =S, i dont wanna get dark :P and tag moreee. you're my number one tagggger with garry of course ;)
Gary: HELLLO. tag when u feeel bored ;)
Carrie: Its good to kno your a regular visitor :D:D: ;) . thanks :)
Sheryl: TAG MORE AFTER MIDNIGHT! :P hey you.
Esther: borrow anytime ok? :), and tag moreeee ;) love ya!
Tyng: hahahs, all those old memories eh? i remembered this time when you bro went out with my bro and there werent any electricity current in out house and we went on the trampoline at 9-10pm and started singing beach boys songs. :P and the scary bird is known as a furby lah. :P, yes it still wont shut up if it awakes :S:S

<3,
Amelia.
And i reaaalllly need now is... You. =)

cutenes.

hi.early blog today since i know what im gonna be doing today.

- watch wicker park
- go jogging
-eat dindin out.

So. im gonna intro a wonderful not to mention kyyyyooooote game for everyone to play. :)

CLICK ME

Screen caps from the darling game.

the beginning..


Not cute .. YET

But the ending.



CUTE right? The objective of the game is to get all the objects eg, people , tube, water.. etctectec To level till MAX.
For those who cant figure that out, I will post the answer to this cute puzzle.

Kudos to Gary who intro-ed me the game and angel, for helping him remember abt the game XD

Replies;
Nadia: you dont have to panic ok? its just a couple of results and besides youre moving to jis after form 5, no?
Angel: Not only disney figures, theres slamdunk, random animals, POKEMONN :P , and other stufffs 0=), and yes you can come over if u ever feel like reading ;) and i DID not say that the results are coming out either the 30th or the 1st. You told me one. -.-"
Reuben: haha, yeah i didnt put my sentence properly >.< :)
Gary: i dont kno what to say. but the GAME is cute ok ;)

<3,
Amelia.
Made a wish and blew a kiss. =)

Book edition.

HELLLO HELLLLO :)
Today, we have a book edition post :)

but first off. a picture of my favourite things. :)

Theres my Elephant named emmeline =), my diary, my phone, fossil watch and fcuk perfume and my body shop lotion <3

ON with the books. :P
my favourites ..



Then theres my princess diaries collection ..

0=D

And my harry potter boooksss ..


i sadly lost the fantastic beast book :'(

My narnia Collection :

the first book contained 3 books in one so it was pretty thick. the movie thats gonna come out will be based on the second book. (if im not mistaken) :)

And my bookshelf :) theres actually 2 but the other one is placed in my parents room. XD


I love reading books. and i read them when
1, im really bored.
2, the internet is slow.
3, i need to laugh XD ... hehehe

my love for books started when i first read a book by enid blyton 10 or more years ago. and um. ok this sint an essay. but anyhoos. READING IS FUN. really it is.

For gary :

Daisy says hello, dont mind the leg XD

i shall end here. but before that. TODay, i watched wimbledon. and its a very very nice movie. :) and thats abt it.

Replies;
Reuben- yeah i was um.. 7? around that la. thanks for the comment abt the hair ;)
9o4 - Visit anytime. i DONT mind at all. im very happy ppl actually visit the site :)
Gary and angel. - whatsup with fishing?
nadia- I KNOW. freaking pmb results :'(

<3,
Amelia.
TO say the words that i cant say.

Ok, so i Am back and its 9. XD
Went to taseeek lama for the walk and l8r to the swimming pool. swam for, 2-3 hours? MY BODY ACHESSSS :S
Anyhoooos. im bored to death and thought it would be fun to do something random. For instance list out random thots and points. :D and later i shallll do my layout codes :S bleh bleh. tripleeee bleh. XD

- i wanna eat dimsum!
- i need to talk to someone and rebecca is BUSY. noone to talk to :'(
- im fat.
- Rain is hot.
- I get all teary whever i listen to avril's - fall to pieces. It reminds me of something anyway.
- Putting your head out of the car, you know the top part where some cars have a window. um i dont kno whatssit called but anyway, when the car is moving is very fun :D
- the only chinese song that i can sing like the whole freaking song without mistakes (:D) is dang ni by cyndi wang.
- I miss you XD
- I want to get more rabbbits XD i misss cookie.

- Daisy my retriever was very cute when it was a puppy. mostly cos she was TINY.
But now shes bigger; shes still cute. but not so lovable :P
sadly :(
- I AM LOVABLE XD

Sophia and me (blur pic) the picture was taken in primary 2 during the nativity play (therefore resulting in the makeup). BUT, i used the webcam to take a picture of the real picture two years ago XD

Monkeyyy business XD

Tigerrrrr business XD

My birthday. My bro, me and cuzzzen =)

Lovable me XD in bali carrying a turtle cos i was scared to carry an iguana :P
- i dislike tomato and chille sauce so much. i dont go near them and i dont hold they're bootttttles. and when im forced to, i actually wash my hands afterwards :S
- i prefer chicken to other kinds of meat.
- my worst subs are : maths, history
- my most liked subs is : english.
- im afraid of my results for pmb.
- i feeeel like dying this very moment.
- i hate heartbreaks.
- speaking of heartbreaks, my heart hurts (not emotionally) reallly badly and i suffocate :S bleh.
- Rebecca says, Amelia's bitchy and nice.

my bestie :D (the only picture in my comp right now cos i HAD to delete the rest) abit yellow cos its taken by the webcam.

I SHALL NOW END MY RANDOM BLOG. cya dalengs :)

replies;
Esther - YOU"RE GONNA GET A HEART ok? :P hehhee and yes. its nice u agree with me. and greeeen is sexxxy ;)
Carrie - i know right. so keliaaan :(
Nadia - hiii :)
Sheryl - i will link u eventho your reply was to gel :)

<3,
Amelia.
I must stick to you my baby.

Ver 4 .

New layout. Reuben helped with finding the pictures. which is pretttty coool. thanks! :)
Lyrics are from; Josie and the Pussycats - Pretend to be nice. Go listen! its a nice song. :D

Replies;
Jiayean - i know but still right? the characters are mostly out of characters. its just not right :S and i didnt expect EVERRRRRY scene. they just shuden have cut of SO many parts offfffff. >.<
Carrie - I KNOW. now i cant wait for the two movies ;)
Koayx - Agreeeed >.<
Sheryl - Thankiesss.
GEEL - i cant wait for corpse bride :'(

No proper blogs today. Going out l8r till like around 8pm? yeah.

<3,
Amelia
Here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you .. You are my only one .

HARRY POTTER

HARRRY POTTTTER. sucked. that is if you've read the book.
HARRRY POTTTTER was kinda good. that is if you've NOT read the book.

WARNING: spoilers ahead :)

so, since i've read the book i've got nuthing to say but. I WAN A REMAKE! :'(
They missed out so many parts that i cant count. For instance WHERE THE FREAK WAS DOBBY AND WINKY????
wasnt dobby the one who gave harry the gillyweeed?! WHY NEVILLE ?!(who has turned rather skinny and tall. HES supposed to be fat).
And .. the part where sirius black head suppose to pop out of the fire? nooo, instead his head get i dont know how to say. its like printed in the fire. wtf? -.-
and at the world cup WTF were the veelas and the goblins and LUGO BAGMAN. hes the jolly round fellow.
AND THERE WERE NO FREAKING MUGGLES AT THE WORLD CUP. it was pretty retarded cos when the death eaters came out all they were doing were making fire.
and the stupid stupid tent supposed to be like how. um double story? AND WHERES ARCHIE AND HIS DRESSSS???????
and they didnt show malfoy's mom. i wanted to see how she looked like.
And parvati and her twin WERE supposed to wear something gorgeous in the ball, but they come in sari's. how very sexy. not that i saying sari's arent sexy. but its not sumthing you whud wear to a ball.
And cho chang? where do i start? her dress was something like a freaking cheongsam at the yule ball and her accent? its like she cant say a proper sentence.
i also noticed harry is SHORT. hes even shorter thn neville. and HERMIONE (:P) and hell lots of other people.
and why does hermione becomes so huggy all of a sudden? Shes supposed to be cool. i'm supposed to like her. BUT Nooo. shes one who kisses harry on the head and hugs him over and over again.
And the beaxbatons, when the showed up and did all the ha and ha . and the butterflies come out. WTF? -.-"
the ending was the worst actually. it just ended like that. LIKE THAT. how?????
and hermione wasnt suppose to wear something pink tot he ball. she was suppose to wear a periwinkle coloured dress and her hair was SUPPOSE TO BE STRAIGHT but no, it came out all curly. WHY?
and, you know when fred OR george weasley asked katie to the ball? NOT supposed to be happening in snape's lesson.
AND WHERE THE FREAK was hermione telling harry and ron that rita skeeter was an animagus????
AND the pensive shit? there were suppose to be seperate memories. Not two in one. WHERE did the crap did that come from?
and. DUmblefore is so different. he's suppose to be soft spoken and nice. But ho ho ho. we got some ganas dumbledore who screams and grabs harry roughly by the neck. WHY? :'(
and draco malfoy ONLY GOT ONE SCENE WITH HIM. :'( two actually but the first one didnt count. and yes, carrie i think he still good looking i suppose :P
AND BARTY crouch jr was suppose to come out in the end to surprise us. BUT NOOO. they shuwed him from the beginning. how very fun. NOT. stupid ppl.
IM SO ANGRY i can tear off the stupid producers head.
And voldermort isnt scary. he is just freaky. man he looks like some bald botak white guy without nose. weird much? -.-"
And, CEDRIC. my poor poor cedric was suppose to be all nice and all. BUT at the end of the tournament at the maze he so ganas like want to win. PLEASE LA. cedric was supposed to be nice and help harry. NOT harry help him :S
ANDDDDD. i dont know. the movie was so disappointing it hurts to talk abt it XD
Plus it was less than 2 hours and 40 minutes.
BORNEO BULLETIN IS A LIE!

Now, i cant wait for :
1, Corspe Bride.
2, Narnia.

HEHE. ok something not to HEHE abt. but hilary duff's new song the heart beat shit. but, im sorry but the video pretttty much sucked and the song all i hear is the beat the beat of my heart or something like that. Its like she doesnt have anything else to sing. IM SORRY SHERYL OK. =p and....... um i dont know. Oh, my brother is coming back next weeeeek (hooray)
And angel and tyng has a new site. Go visit ! :)
I am also going to do a new layout cos, apparently THIS current layout (ver 3) was actually dedicated to someone who im not saying names of but no respond SO it doesnt matter and besides its difficult to read the blogs :P

LOTSA EXTRA LUV TO MY TAGGGGGERS( PPL WHO CHECK MY SITE OUT) :
- ANGEL
- GARY
- REUBEN
- ESTHER
- SHERYL
- NADIA
- CARRIE
- JIAYEAN
- AND MORE <3
i might not reply tags anymore, cos its abit difficult. so um, I'll start answering here?

Esther - Hi, its nice to know you visit XD
Angel - i dont miss pe. BLEH. and you got the heart you wanted ;)
Sheryl - Yes they did.. SADLY. btw HIII :)
NADIA - i saw you ust now so im not gonna replyyy :P
Carrie - i changed my mine. i suppose tom felton still looks good ;) as long as he doesnt botak :P
Gary - ditto nadia ok. :P

<3.
Amelia.
I WAN TO SCREAM AND TELL YOU HOW MUCH I <3 YOU.

HP TOMORROW

HELLO HELLO XD
So i heard harry potter isnt as good as it looks (how can it ? with that katie leung in it) lol no lah not only cos of her. but ANYHOOS, iguess i'll ahve to wait and see for myself. :)
GOING TOMORRROW wheeee XD , i cant wait realllly. but oh well.

Today, i .. went to walk at tasik lama. one whole round you know. i m so very proud of myself :D heheheheh hopefully i lose the weight and be skinny (hah! i wish :P) tomorrow morning ima gonna be duing push ups and all. HEHE. i REALLLLY wanna be skinny you know.
Pmb results in 2 weeks time. WISH ME LUCK. im so scared i wont do well but oh well :s. Psr results came out and yeh 100&passes for sas. so. congrats alll. :)

IM BORED AND IM OFF TO WATCH FULL HOUSE FINISH. so tata.

<3,
Amelia.
i dont kno what to do, i'm so inlove with you.

NADIA bonggok and me. :P

My dog and i =)

becky and me :) at mall on monday.

Version Three

Hello Hello.
I present you guys, version three feat the lyrics of avril lavinge, fall to pieces :)
I think the lyrics are nice therefore resulting in this layout.
Its not much but at least its different than the adam brody one.
thats adam BRODY not, PRODY like some guy sed in my tagboard. It might be a typo or whatever but i dont care. :P

HARRY POTTER's PREMIER IS TOMORRRROW. I WISH I CUD GO. but sadly PIANO is in the way again. i dont reallly like piano :S i wanna play drums. and besides, when we play the piano we cant have nice long nails so i chopped mine off yesterday. pfft now you all will be able to see, short stubby nails. which is pretttty ugly for a girl. but what can i dO? :( anyhoo. i wanted to wear a gryffindor robe to the hp show cos they sell in thailand right, very nice:P but my mom sed i'll embarass my friends. WHAT, cant i show abit of support? :P

The show is gonna eb like less than 3 hours i think.which is SO not fair cos the book is so freaking thick they shud have made the movies 4 hours :D bleh. i bet they're gonna cut out alot of parts. which is EURGH. =.=" and CHO CHANG (katie fugly Leong) is so not to my standard (i kno i sed this before but yes, i shall repeat cos im amelia and i like to repeat things =D) i dont like cho chang. i think CEDRIC DIGGORY DESERVES BETTER! like hermione for instance :P but it doesnt matter since hes gonna die anyway. BUT STILL. have u heard the fake accent miss katie fugly leong has? its so fake like shes trying to hard.HELO? your an asian quit trying to be a british ok? sheeeesh. I think hermione's dress for the yule ball is very pretty but parvati's sari is just wrong. in the book, they're suppose to be GORGEOUS. i wonder what happened. i guess we shall have to see to find out.

And, whats up with fleur or the actress playing her? SHes supposed to be half veela helooo? SHES SUPPOSE TO BE GORGEOUS until everyguy will look at her. but no, what do we get? a skinny horse face girl( im Not being mean XD). bleh and victor krum. i imagined him a tad bit more skinnier not so bulky. cedric is good looking so i'm not gonna complain abt that. and .. ron (rupert grint) <333 hehe. and harry actually is quite better looking in GOF then the rest ^^V hmm. and emma watson is ok. :) and um ... yeah OH> TOM FELTON (draco Malfoy) WHATSUP WITH HIS HAIRRR. i want it to be the same like the first movie when it was combed back. now he looks like i dunno. some weird looking guy. but still pretty good looking i guess. HEHE.

Anyway, imma gonna end now cos i NEED to go for piano classes and before i wan to eat my lunch ^^ I HAVE PIANO twice a week. kelian me ok. booooo. lol ok erm. WHOEVER WATCHES HARRY POTTER BEFORE ME DON TELL ME ANYTHING OR I'LL SCREAM AND BITE YOU. HAH
Oh and. the ppl comeing with me are. rebecca, amilyn, hoe wei, Nadia, gary and eric, ryan and ME! :D 8 ppl althogher on one row in cinema 1 in the mall.

So. till tomorrow or tomorrow tomorrow..
<3,
Amelia.
Is it impossible to love me? =)

Infected.

I got infected by shu yee. :S and we're suppose to post er, 5 random facts and then infect some other ppl? i dont kno. whatever.


Ame's 5 random facts
1. i get very pmsed for no apparent reasons and will. scream at everyone who tries talking to me. for instance now.
2. I get annoyed so easily.
3. i dont reallly like chocolate, i prefer vanilla.
4. In EVERY movie that i watch, i will cry at least once (even in chicken little -.-) because im so very emotional and i dont like that.
5. i sing all the time (not all the time la. MOST of the time).

Um, and i wannnna infect : whoever whu feels bored and wants to do something random :)

yours,
Amelia.
If you feel what i feel. be nice and tell me thats its true

Chicken Little and tomorrow :p

.. is very cute =) i <3 fish alot. Today went to the mall with rebecca (she followed me there) where we ate at pizza hut primo and then to swensons for some ice cream where gary joined us. ate some yummmy chocloate icecream and walked around the mall. saw dennis and gary saw his friend. i found ashlee's cd. and walked around somemore. Kok ming came and he went to eat at the food court cos he came form school and was hungry. we then went to watch chicken little. which was nice. =)

There, this is what i did today. hmm tomorrow will be more boring-er. so i shall tell you what im doing tomorrow. Stay in the office, use the internet and watch alot like love(with ashotn Kutcher) and read abit of books :) ..

<3,
Corn Princess :D
i cant wait for harry potter .. reallly =)

EDDDIIIT/ kok ming : i didnt mean to make u sound boring ok? =) i was bored and didnt feel like blogggging. so yeh. XD

jobless.

Hello Hello my friends.
=), Just came back from fetching my daddy from the airport. He just came back from singapore :D
He got me, golf gloves, 3 books and a pair of taka earring. ^^V and yesterday, mommy bot me to yayasan and i bought a new handbag. and today, i bought this jeans that i have been finding for a VERY long time. ^^V so i suppose, life has been good.

TOmorrow i'm off to see CHIcken Little in the mall with friends and then on friday *dramatic music ons* HARRY POTTER here i come :) *dramatic music offs* So yes, im pretttty excited. =) Oh and, i bought the Korean Series, Full House with ENGLISH subtitles. (finally) i've been luking for it for sucha a long time i almost gave up. =s anyway, i watch the first 4 episodes already and i will be continuing later. And, for my next layout it will feat Full house :) thats what i have decided la. not sure yet.

I will end now. im prettty wiped out.

<3,
Amelia.
*and i will love you, until forever.

Just like Heaven

.. is a fantabulous movie. Very sad at some parts. cried like a baby :S :P watched it just now at the mall/ then l8r headed to tasik lama for a jog ;).then ate at lucky restaurant.

Then came home, played piano abit ^^ then hada shower. came out and DANCED ^^V hehehhe its very tiring but fun la. Tomorrow going to swim at 6(hopefully- if i can wake up).
&
AMELIA LAU HAS 8 TICKETS TO HARRY POTTER GOF NEXT FRIDAY. Too bad i cant go on the first day cos me and becky had piano class. bleh. CLICK THIS I cant wait for harry potter you know. i <3 harry potter. and gof being my favourite book. HMM.~ =)

Oh and huda has a new site. go show her some lurve =) her layout is cute. Colourful and dark at the same time which is pretty! :)

i suppose i'l stop here.
But before i go.
IM SORRRRY TITZ THAT IM NOT GOINNA PUT UP YOUR LAYOUT =/ SORRY OKE. and i did buy your asam with sugar thing. when dyu want it? ><

<3 lots and lots of it,
Amelia.
-- had a dream about us. ;)

hi.

HI. i haven been blogging due to the fact blogger fcuked up. and its pretty obvious angel misssses me HEHEHEHEHHEHEHE.lol
Anyway.my daddy's in singapore ( so lucky come back form thailand he straight away go singapore) Life has been pretty olright. :)

Went to walk at the stadium just now, you kno, to um.. sweat abit hehehehe. and im pretty random now. >.< so um. nvm. i wont talk to much. and my post abt bangkok is up and readable.

SPECIAL THANKIES TO ANGELYN CHOO TZE HUI FOR TELLING ME TO USE MOZ TO BLOG ISTEAD OF OPERA. ^^

lotsa lurve,
Amelia
Can't take my eyes off you.

BACK FROM THAILAND ^^

I WANT TO THANK ALL TAGGERS WHO BOTHERED TO CHECK MY BLOG OUT AND TAG ESP :
ANGEL,
GARY,
LINA,
ESTHER,
CARRIE,
ERSALINA & MORE.

SO, THAILAND WAS A BLAST :D. BUT . E#@%R@#&^%#$&(*$&%^&^%@#&@# and another 5 zillion swear words, i did not %@#$&^@# bring my camera. It was when i was half way to the airport and was looking for my hair comb. when i realised. WHERE THE &$%# WAS MY CAMERA. so i was tearing my hair apart, complaining abt how i didnt have a camera when my dad said, nvm la won die without camera. -.-" To which i replied. HA????? how to take pictures?! and he replied u dont have phone meh? DIAOO. -.-""""""" But i didnt take any pictures with my camera too cos, HAIZ. my dad he hog the charger every night, i cannot charge my phone. -.-"
SO, IM SO SORRRRY, NO PICTURES at all. :'( EEEEEEEEE.

I will tak abt the trip yes?

3rd November
Got up and had a nice day. Went to the airport arnd 12? cos my flight was at 2.45pm. Not alot of people (must be scared of bird flu- lol) But yeh, aeroplane was not full. boarded the plane where, i got to eat a vegetarian meal cos my dad requested earlier for it. i had eggplants(yuck) and mushrooms and some kind of cake. Not bad actually traded my eggplants for some sausages from my mom ^^V so reached thailand arnd 5? or before that not sure and besides thailand is an hour behind our time >.< so reached did the normal stuffs and headed to the hotel called, Phatumwan Princess hotel (sounds nice leh ;) heheheheh its a 4 star hotel) Whatever it was nice. and it was situated next to MBK (ma Bu kong) CLICK ME one of the most famous shopping centre. If your really bored heres the link to the hotel since i didnt get pictures CLICK ME So um yea. reached the hotel right, checked it and etc. went to the room and etc. and then we proceeded to MBK. where i did some shopping. Bought a few tops and all. around 8ish went to eat. i ate the mango rice (YUMMY) and some soup noodles. Then cos, my mom wanted to go to the four faced buddha we did. Took a 45 minute WALK. ( yes for your info i did lose all the weight that i put on by walking cos the food in thailand is oh-so-good) SO crowded -.-" but yeah got there anyway. mom went to pray then after that walked past all those stores. Bought a slipper, skirts, did my nails (u kno the nail art? yeah only 4 dollars for two hands and ITS SO PRETTTTY) bought a bag too. Reached the hotel arnd 11-12ish. ate my 7eleven sausages (FINNNNALLLLLLY). went back and sleeep.

4th November
OK. BORING DAY. :'( apparently mommy and daddy darling went for a body checkup in Bangkok Hospital where we spent the whole freaaaaking day form 8-8pm. So anyhoooo. i did a checkup on my skin too cos bored bah :P hahah and my parents had to go for this thing right and it was a 2 hour process so the nice nurses brought me to the waiting room. a nice room which had a big plasma teevee and alot of sofas with an aircon. I watched Music From Another Room on HBO which is a VERY nice show and jude law looked extremely hot in that movie. then i watched abit of beauty and the beast (the movie). Oh and did i mention? the hospital is like a hotel. SO LAWA ok? =p and they had free drinks everywhere!!!!!!!!!!! lol.

5th November
Spent the morning in the hospital again. and etc afternoon went to the emporium (a high class shopping mall selling all the kinds of brands) i Bought a few shirts and alot of hair accessories. almost wanted to buy the louis Vuitton walllet but daddy said it was cheaper in singapore. hmmm ~ oh well. then we went back to the hotel to drop our things off and i went to www blue saloon where i had a hair cut and wash. After we ate dindin at sizzler yummy food again and, went walking around mbk again. Bought another bag ^^V and watched a whole 30 minute preview of harry potter. SO COOL OK. the stupid previews in brunei is like hwat less than 5 minutes?! so we walked abit etc etc and when back to sleep.

6th November
Woke up really early and all went to takjutak market. its this big weekend market that sells anything mentionable. From food to clothes to bags to earrings to animals , YEs, animals. ANIMALS real life animals that cost so friggin cheap. I mean they sell dogs, cats, rabbits, guinea pigs, squirrels, snakes(eww), and etc. AND you get to touch the animals. And right, Thai Baht 100 - B$4. OMG right. one darling chihuahua (the realllly tiny kind) is like only 80 bucks here. and its pure brreeeed!!! so many kinda of dogs i almost went crazy cos we cant buy them back. And even if we did and bought a puppy we whud have to quarrantine it for two weeks in thailands and another 2 weeks in brunei. and by that time the puppy whuden be as tiny as before. bleh. so kns. But its a gr8 place for bargains for eg, i bought a bag for only 1 buck. -.- ehehehe and its a nice bag ^^V. So after the market, went to a fruit market and bought mangoes. sweeeet yummy mangos. <3 and we headed to future park apparently, the biggest shopping mall in thailand and yes it was very big maybe 10 times our mall? But it was very far, on the outskirts of bangkok actually. yes, we walked there and bought ALOT of clothes :D ehHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE , and somemore EHEHEHHEHEHE. We ate at a japanese restaurant where we had to wait an hour before we cud actually eat. but it was worth it. GOOD FOOOD =) haha. and i bought 2 books from kinokuya. At night, we went to the Night market where we all went for feet massages. Which was nice 0=D and i bought some hair bands and clips for a frikking 10 baht each. -.-" Thats, a few cents only. -..- then finish and etc went back for a sleeeep.

7th November
Hmm. went back to the hospital for an hour for an appointment got medicines and all. then we went to this place where everything was japanese ;P lol but yeah and then headed back to the hotel and reserved a place in the hotel spa for my mom and me. ^^V So spent the afternoon in the spa which was very relaxing cos our body was aching like hell from walking SO much -.-" so yeah night, mom wanted to go see the 4 faced buddha AGAIN. so we did.

TODAY
Woke up at 5. Packed everything went to the airport and all. reached brunei. unpacked and here i am bloggging. :)
You guys have no idea how happy i was to see that my visiter count and gone past 1000 and angel being my 1000 visitor. i love you angel :D not in a lesbonerdish kinda way la. lol. random. um. So overall :

SHOPPING : 10/10 stuffs are not overpriced and are all very nice.
FOOD : 9.5/10 Cos, the food spicy and i cant take spicy food. So if u like spicy food i suppose 10/10 :P
GUYS : 9.5/10 hot guys ( i saw a few who resembled rain <3, beware of the over girlie ones. and the ones who have girlfriends cos they will stare at you if you stare at their bfs.)
GIRLS : no comment this is because 3/4 of the girls are all skinnnnnnnnnnnnnny and tall. and has very good looking bfs. -.-"

OVERALL : 9.75/10 dont ask me why 9.75 :p hahah but yeah. thailand was a great place to visit and i will definitely go next year again ^^V.
Im pretty useless ive been there for the past 5-7 years and all i kno how to say is, sawadeekap/ka- how are you and kaphunka - thank you. -.-" lol

Ok, ill end here cos im tired. so cya dahlengs.
Oh and im sorry cos i have decided not to change my layout to the nice one titz made me, cos i realised the space was too small :( so im sorry ok.

<3,
Amelia.
its too good to be true.

Saturday's

The story start wif a guy, name Paul and a girl named Ella..

Both of were still students but had already started
to 'fall in love'.. in another words, go steady..
In one
of the days during their June holidays which they
have been waiting for, they met each other at a
basketball court..

Coincidentally, they started playing a match wif
each other.. they had fun..

As Ella knew one of the frens of Paul, she asked
for Paul's number.. At tat time, Paul don't want to
fall in love again, after getting so much hurt from
the previous one.. Sadly, tat fren of Paul didn't give
her the number..

As days went by, the holidays ended.. They met
each other at another basketball near Ella's skool..

Day went by and Ella borrowed Paul's hp and
missed call her own hp to get his number..

Tat very nite, she smsed Paul.. They chatted and
had fun.. Till one day, Ella expressed her love for
Paul.. Paul loved her much too.. after thinking 4 a
long time, Paul thinks tat he and Ella would last,
thus, asked her if she would be his partner..
Obviously, she agreed..

They went steady for one and a half short
mths.. Ella ended the relationship.. with her
parents not allowing her to go steady as a reason..
who on earth would accept tat lame reason? but
Paul, like many other love victims, had no choice
but to let go..

Years past and another fell in love wif
Paul.. She was Mary.. Paul and Ella didn't contact
for a very long time.. Paul still loved Ella
alots.. but
nvr had a chance to tell her.. one day, along a
street, Paul was wif Mary..

Paul saw a familiar figure across the road.. Guess
who was tat? it was Ella.. Paul ran acrossed the
road, without noticing a truck coming.. BANG!!
everyone near him crowded around tat area..
Mary screamed as she rushed to Paul.. Ella joined
in the crowd.. She remembered the face, one who
loved her so much in the past.. Next to him, was
Mary.. He wasn't dead.. 'dun give up.. say my
name, 100 times, 1000 time, a million times.. u're
gonna say it till u can finish a million b4 u can
stop!!' Mary said to Paul.. with tears in her eyes..
Everyone thought Mary was Paul's ger.. Standing
at one side, alone, was a ger crying.. tat's was
Ella
who regretted breaking up wif Paul, after recalling
how nice Paul treated her in the past..

Paul was sent to the Hospital.. Mary and Ella were
there.. Praying hard.. An operation was carried
out.. Paul didn't survive.. The Doctor came out,
shaking his head.. Sighed.. He too, thought tat
Mary was Paul's gerfren, thus approached her
for an apology for not being able to revive Paul.. He
said to Mary: "Miss Ella.. your boyfren didn't
survive.. he gave himself up after calling your
name
157 times.. im sorry.."

The Doctor has actually mistook Mary for Ella..
Paul was calling out for Ella.. Ella cried in a
corner.. She knew why he had stopped at
157.. tat was the day she broke wif him..(15/7)
she, who ended the relationship which Paul
treasured so much, has in turn, ended Paul's life..

For Friday

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.
But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
But the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers,
especially the blue."

For Thursday.

This is a love letter from a boy to a girl....
However,the girl's father does not like him and
want them to stop the relationship......
So, the boy wrote this letter to the little girl.

1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."

So bad..... However, the boy told the girl before to
"READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning only to
read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13......
So...
Please read it again!....it's so smart n sweet...
Interesting right??

Hiatus (kind of)

Hi. loverly taggers and readers mainly : Angel, Lina, Sheryl, Reuben, Gary and etc :) sorry if i didnt mention your names. :)

Anyway, i was supposed to put up this very lawa-ness layout made by Titz. BUT, unfortunately the place where im supposed to put all the contents and blog is too small. so i have to figure that out and i'll figure that out after i come back from Thailand. But its a very nice uneeq layout. but you all know. i like big spaces( i mean, heck even my handwriting is large, i'll show you) CLICK ME! ok, so it looks small in this but in reality its big lol, dont believe me? ask lina or any of my former classmates :D ehehehhe . but i like my handwriting just the way it is :D lol sorry for the randomness.

Eventho ive been to thailand so many times. im actually very excited and i dont think i'll be able to sleep tonight. I've done all my packing except the handcarry bag in which im still not sure what to pack in it. my handbags, sweaters, a book, my camera, the perfume and my diary most prolly. But i feel like im missing sumthing. HMM.

OH. and i cant go to all my friends open house :'( cos obviously im not gonna be in brunei. So, im sorry to all who invited me. I'll go next year yes? :D
Im very sure we'll be visiting all tha places we went to last year again. but hmm. yeah nvm. THis is my second trip abroad without my darling brother. it gets a bit lonely at times but otherwise im so used to it >.< I'll be back on the 8th at night. (yeah short trip, but daddy has to come back for work) So i'll be updating on the 9th and it'll be a long blog with pictures! (if im not too tired) Im gonna write eveything in my diary so i wont forget what to blog about :D. hehehehehe

I CANT WAIT TO EAT THAILANDS 7 eleven SAUSAGES with cheese. MMMMMM~ i must get that the minute we check in the hotel. i will run to the nearest 7 11 and buy them. :D ^_^ hahah true what there's 7 ll's every corner in thailand ;P lol. um. i wont be posting up any stories for my loverly readers so that you guys have sumthing to read for the next few days so im sorry ( to sheryl mostly she so supportive of my blogging <33333) ehehhehe

And when i come back. it'll be ten more days to HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i cant hardly wait !!!!!!!!! Mainly cos, GOF is MY FAVOURITE BOOK. altho im not going to like katie leung (the girl who acts as cho chang) and shes supposed to be VERY GORGEOUS. i wonder what happened at the tryouts and there were SO many girls you know and they had to choose katie. i wonder why( still wondering since the day i saw her pictures with her phone.) Most of her pictures are with fones anyway. why wanna show off her fone?! sorry abt the rudeness and bitchyness but yes i dont like her. as much as i dont like hilary duff. SORRY SHERYL :P but yes. I really cant tahan. EEEEEE.

Oh and have i ever mention that i find the british accent very sexy? eehehe really it is. American sounds so NOrmal now its not very um. nice. but british accent. OOOO. It so catchy like i can just listen to it for the whole day Lol. Another reason to further my studiess in london now ;) hahahah

On the other hand i'm gonna catch chicken little with rebecca. Not agnes cos shes probably still enjoying herself. in hongkong or wherever shes going >.< bleh. but yeah CHICKEN LITTLE IS KYOOOOOOTE. very cute super cute. hahaha i did the storytelling competition abt chicken little in Pimary one and i won first price (ehh kambang :D) But the story was the usual one about the sky falling yeh. that was my first throphy i got. HEHEHEHEHE :D Eek. im so over-excited therefore resulting in this kinda longish blog. and enjoy this blog. its not everyday i type so much at 11 in the morning :P So. i'll end here? maybe i'll change my mind and post something up for my felllow frends to read ^^V Till then. Cya and have a great Hari Raya for the muslims.

<3.
Amelia.
jelly is yummy.

Read for TUesday

Just so you guys know, when im not blogging (cos i dont have anything to blog about like today, all i did was use the computer), i will post up a read like this for my fellow taggers and readers :) and you might have read them before but oh well right??

Tuesday

About four years ago, when life wasn't so hard, when friends and good times were all that really mattered, a young girl about 14 years of age lived her carefree days. Her name was Leana. At the time, she was with someone totally different from her, a boy known to be a pure heart breaker and player. But hey, life was good, she was young, and that didn't really matter. All that mattered was that she knew what it was like to have feelings for a guy and live her life of endless happiness with family and friends.

One afternoon, she stood on a grassy hill near school, embracing her boyfriend Jerry. At the same time, about 10 feet away, at the flag pole, stood a boy about two years older than Leana by the name of James. He watched her gently hug her boyfriend and slowly walk away, until he could no longer see her image. He never knew what it was like to feel for anybody, but a strange feeling overtook him. It was a feeling he couldn’t explain and it confused him. He thought to himself, ‘I have to meet her someday.’

"Hey James!" a boy called out. "You look all dazed, what are you thinking about?" "Oh nothing Jay lets just go home now," James replied. When James arrived at Jay's house, they sat down for some soda, and James had gotten his mind off of that strange feeling. "Damn, I forgot to go call my home girl man, can you hand me the phone James?" Jay asked as he took a sip of his soda. "Hello, may I please speak to Leana? This is Jay," he asked. Jay and Leana started chatting, until Jay remembered to do some chores so he handed the phone to James.

"Here man, can you go talk to her for awhile? I gotta do some stuff for my dad real quick."
"Alright, no problem," said James.
"Hi, this is James. Who's this?"
"Oh, this is Leana" she replied.

They chatted for about 10 minutes but James and Leana really clicked. After that one conversation, Leana and James began to keep in touch with phone calls everyday. They never met in person so neither person knew who the other was, or so they thought. James was totally unaware that the girl he watched from the flagpole the other day was the very girl he was laughing and talking with everyday. Weeks turned into months as Leana and James grew close, and told one another everything. And with this bond, they became the best of friends, although they still had never met. James decided to visit Jay again after school, which of course happened to be the same school that Leana attended. James knew for a fact that Leana went to that school, but still didn't know what she looked like.

As James walked onto the campus, he stood by the same flagpole, and waited for Jay. He watched the crowd of people, chatting about, doing their own thing, until he spotted that one girl he had seen that afternoon. He was so caught up by the way she carried herself, and how different she seemed from the other girls. She was shy, mature, quiet, and simple. None of that make up stuff all over her face. As he admired her, something immediately caught his attention.

"Hey Leana, what’s up?" a girl called out, walking towards the girl James was admiring. "Oh, nothing much," she said with a sweet smile. "Oh my god!" James said to himself. "Could that be Leana? The girl I've been talking to on the phone with?" He was so surprised. He walked up from behind Leana, tapped her on her shoulder, and quickly turned around, pretending he didn’t do anything. Leana, a little annoyed, said "How rude!" and all James could do was laugh. He couldn't believe that that girl he was so eager to meet was Leana, the very girl he had been talking to for quite some time.

He called her that day, and told her that he saw her. Leana was so surprised. "Oh, that was you huh, that guy who tapped me on the shoulder?" she laughed. Inside, Leana and James felt something so weird, every time they talked and every time they were apart. They felt something inside when they thought of one another. But the feelings they felt, they let it pass, and denied it to themselves, as if it were simply nothing. They wondered about these feelings time to time, but never really tried to figure out what it meant. Leana and James told one another about their lives, their fears, problems, and little infatuations over people every now and then, but they always kept their feelings for each other hidden.

One rainy day, Leana called James, crying about losing Jerry. He comforted her so much, and she felt so much better when he did. James was always there for Leana, and he never once let her down. That's one thing she loved about him. Not to mention, they were so much like one another, always making other people laugh, and always making each other happy. Besides gender and names, it would be almost impossible to differentiate between the two.

Summer came and James and Leana spent more time talking with one another, and finally got to see each other in person. They met each other at Jays' house one day, and Leana's heart dropped when she saw James for the first time. She watched him play on the computer, just as he watched her that day after school. When it was time to go home, James gave Leana his school ID and she said her goodbye to James with a warm embrace. They both blushed, and that same unexplainable feeling took over the both of them. Leana knew then what that feeling was. She was ashamed of it when she was with Jerry but now she was no longer in denial. She liked James.

The first person she told was her best friend Lae, who also knew James. She was shocked! Days later, James was talking to Jay and told him, "Hey, I think I like Leana." "Really? Wow, that's cool." From that day on forward, five people knew, Jay, Lae, Leana, James, and god himself. And it was up to fate to lead the both of them to their destiny. It had been a whole year, and Leana and James were still afraid to admit their feelings to one another. They knew what was up, but never took the risk to admit it. It was not until Leana hinted at it did their relationship move forward. "I'm supposed to tell you everything right James?" she asked him. "Duh! Why? You like someone?" he replied. "Uh yeah, sort of," she said. "Who," he asked, a little nervous. "Well, he has the same background as you, about your height, your age, and you know him very well. You see him everyday." James knew then what that meant. He felt the same, but was so afraid to show it, because he was never in a real relationship before. He knew it was him, and Leana was happy to get the ball rolling. They started to flirt with each other more and admitted their feelings in ways only they could understand.

On October 11, 1996, James and Leana both officially started seeing each other. In Leana’s eyes, James was the perfect guy. He was tall, handsome, had a great sense of humor, caring, loving, just about everything Leana could want in a guy. And his eyes, his eyes were so warm, so sexy, so wow! And James felt exactly the same way about Leana. Everyone who met them said they were the perfect couple. James and Leana were both very happy with one another. No one could imagine them breaking up and even expected them to get married some day. Their forgiveness, love, passion, and care were endless for one another. These two were inseparable, and very much in love. James would always point out things he loved about her and end with a “I love you" and a passionate kiss. "I love you too, babe," she'd always reply. Two years passed, James graduated, and things began to change. They got into many fights, and Leana began to feel the hurt, something she never felt before with James. James always let her know that even through rough times, he still loved her. He took her hand one day, as she cried cold painful tears, looked into her eyes, and said, "No matter what, through it all, this is it. There's no one else but you. I will always love you, and I will end up with you. I promise," as he wiped her tears away and kissed her gently on the forehead.

James began to change and hurt her emotionally everyday. Her sweet and perfect man was slowly disappearing into someone she never knew. He began to stop doing things for her, he stopped making her happy, and he stopped saying sweet things. He stopped visiting her, stopped calling, and always chose his friends over her.

When they argued, he'd yell at her, hang the phone up on her, and leave her with so much pain and nothing to do but cry. Half a year passed like this, and things got worse. When she tried telling him how she felt, he just let it pass. He started lying about things, and became very unfaithful to her. He began to drink, which he promised he wouldn't, and hung out with his friends all the time. He never had time for her anymore. James did things that his old sweet self would never do before. He left her many times at home just crying, and didn't even bother to see if she was okay.

Basically, Leana was in love with someone who seemed to not love her back anymore. They were together alright, but it didn't seem like that to Leana. It hurt too much inside, but because Leana loved him so much, she never let him go. She took the pain, cried endless tears, and still loved him through it all, while he was out breaking promises, and being someone he knew he never was before. There never passed a day when Leana didn't think about him, worry about the relationship, wonder why he became the way he was, or cry. The pain he caused her broke her heart more and more everyday. Her family was affected, her friends, and even school. Everybody was worried about her. No one ever saw her smile anymore, and if she did, it was only for a while. She hardly slept, and everything in her life slowly fell apart.

All because the one person in her life who she loved so much hurt her in ways that could never be fixed. James basically left her out of his time, out of his reach, out of his life. He acted as if she wasn't even his girlfriend. She did as much as she could for him, though he didn't see it, and sacrificed her whole life for him. She did everything to make things work, but he didn't do much at all. She tried so hard to figure out what the problem was, and why he hurt her so much. "How can God give you the best gift of your life, and take it away as if it wasn't yours to keep?" she asked everyday. James became meaner, and it hurt her more and more. One day he picked her up from school, and his attitude was very different. She looked at him slowly. His build was bigger, his lips showed no smile, his voice was so monotone, and his eyes..

She looked at his eyes through the rear view mirror, and she began to cry. His eyes were so cold now, and that love, warmth, and sweetness she used to see no longer existed. James wasn't James anymore. They didn't speak a word the entire ride home, and all she could think was "Why? Why are things like this now?" She came home and cried her heart out. And all that played in her head were the days he dropped by just to see her, just to hold her. Now, he seemed as if he didn't even want to hold her anymore, touch her, or even look at her. She didn’t know why he was like this and blamed herself for it. She lay in bed that night reminiscing about the nights they laid together in bed and he held her close to his body. How she use to wake up summer mornings to be greeted by his warm smile.

Why was everything so hard now, and why did it hurt so much? She remembered the sweet sound of his voice constantly telling her he loved her, when they kissed, or when they just stared into each others eyes. She remembered the days when he'd stroke her hair, and laid light kisses on her lips. She remembered the days when he'd run all the way to her house just to hug her tight, and she remembered the days when everything between them was so perfect. She cried helpless tears, and all hope was just gone. She knew she was still so young, but regardless of what age she was, it still hurt. She felt that endless pain that shuts your whole life down. The point was, she felt it, and she didn't know how to make it go away. There were times where she'd think about leaving him, but she imagined how much worse the pain would feel knowing she lived a life without him. As long as she knew she was his, and he was hers made that slightest bit of difference. Her tears fell harder, and her mind began to shut down on her. All she could think was "God I love you James, I miss your old self so much."

One afternoon, James picked her up from school again. They were both walking until Leana began to cry like usual. "Why are you crying again, damn!" James yelled. "Nothing," she struggled to say. “What I hate about seeing you is that you always end up crying on me for no fucking reason! What the hell am I doing wrong now, shit!" he yelled again. She tried to hug him, but he resisted. "I love you James, I'm sorry," she cried. "Yeah whatever," he coldly replied. James was so frustrated. He didn't know what he was thinking and didn't know what he was doing. A confusion of being with her or leaving her rushed through his head, as they walked towards the car. Suddenly, in the midst of it all, a loud bang surprised them both. James didn't know what it was. He turned around to see if Leana heard it. "Hey did you.. NOOO!" he cried.

Leana had been shot on her right side and laid on the street, bleeding and gasping for breath. He ran over to her as everyone crowded around. "CALL 911!" he screamed, as tears began to roll down his face. "Babe, are you okay?" he asked, holding her in his arms. Leana slowly reached to touch his right cheek, as she looked him in his eyes, and smiled. "Babe, I'm so sorry if I did anything wrong to make us the way we are now,” she struggled to say. "Leana don't even say that, you're going to be okay. God, someone please help!" he cried. "You hurt me a lot James, but I still love you so much. Because no matter what, through it all, this is it, there's no one else. No one else but you." She smiled, and coughed as she gasped for air. She began to cry, and still the pain she felt within her heart struck her like always. Flashbacks of their times together rushed through her mind, and she could hardly keep her eyes open, as her helpless body lay there in James’ arms. James began crying and looked down into her eyes, hoping she wouldn't die.

"Babe, I'm so sorry for everything, God I love you! You can’t leave, we're suppose to get married remember? Remember babe, I promised, this is it, it's you that I'm suppose to end up with. Babe, remember?" he cried. "I know, I know," she nodded her head, tears still streaming. James held her closer to his body. "God please no, don't take her away from me," he whispered. Leana's hand began to slowly drift away from his cheek, as she struggled to keep her eyes open. "I love you so much and I wish I could've made everything better. But babe, everything I did, every tear I cried, I did it all for you.. everything.. I love you babe." She said, "I don't wanna go, but I have to, and God knows I love you. We'll be together again babe. Remember, because you said, we will always be together.. we will."

One last tear rolled down her cheek, and dropped slowly on James hand. Her eyes closed, “I love you," she whispered, and Leana passed away. "NOOO!" James cried. "You can’t go.." he rocked her back and forth, and tried to wake her up. "Leana! Leana! Wake up.. c'mon please, Leana. Please, please wake up.. we can work things out I promise. C'mon babe, we're supposed to get married, please wake up. Leana, please.." he begged as tears streamed down his face. He closed his eyes and rested his head upon hers as endless tears continued to fall. "God, I’m so sorry I didn't take care of you babe, I'm so sorry," he cried as he kissed her forehead. All James could do was cry, and hold her until the ambulance came. As they put her on a stretcher and placed a white blanket over her head, it began to rain. James fell on his knees, looked up into the sky, and cried his heart out. "I love you Leana!" he screamed. "I love you.." he whispered one last time. From that day on, James knew he had nothing else. His life and his love were gone. And all he could think about was her smile, and how her life slipped away in his arms.

He would always remember her, and always love her. Because that was it, it was her that he chose to love for life. You see, life is never forever, and things come only once. You don't know how long you'll get to keep things, and you'll never how long you'll get to live. But as long as you know you've got something in your life you love, then cherish it, make the best of it. Because one day, when you least expect it, you could lose the most important thing in your life. Take care of the people you love. Because one day, it just might be too late to take care of anything, or even see them smile again.

Trust me I know.. some day we will be together.. because it was my promise.