For the leading lady of my life.

To the leading lady of my life,

My mother, my best friend, my confidante,

I am beyond grateful that you are my mother and not just today, but everyday I count you as one of my biggest blessings in life.

You have been there for me through thick and thin, giving your undying support and love for me even though sometimes I don't go the way you would like me. Thank you for believing in me and always reminding me that even if there is nobody else there for me, you will always be my side.

I love you so much and I don't know who I would have become or who I would be able to turn to if I didn't have you in my life.

You are my pillar of strength and my shoulder to cry on, always.

I can't wait to see you end of June! I am already counting down the days.

Lots of love,
Your daughter xoxoxox

Will be back soon

I've been meaning to return to the blogging community for a while now, complete with lovely pictures and memories to boot. However, unfortunately blogger has been acting up and just won't let me upload pictures! Ugh.

Anyway, it is 840 am and I am sat in the library half asleep, looking at pictures on Tastespotting (because for some reason I am STARVING) and being a nuisance to Jun who's finishing up his thesis. (Not really, tying to be of moral support.. but I don't know if it's been working.) lol

Exams are at the end of the month - 28th and 31st of May and in true Amelia fashion, been procrastinating the hell out of it. 3 more weeks today I tell my self so I will start serious revisioning come Monday. Oh yeaaaah. That said though, we've had all our final classes this week for uni. If all goes well, those would have been the last classes of my LIFE.

Why am I SO BLOODY HUNGRY. I am going to buy jarred pesto (pls dont judge) and just mix it with a TON of pasta and sundried tomatoes later.

And then I have work.

Woohoo.

Life of a procrastinator.

Lots of love
Amelia

Silence.

There's something horrid about being alone, isn't there. The way silence and loneliness just seeps into your mind and soul and nothing like a film or music or a good book can keep your mind of it. It eats you up, fogging up everything and soon you're just under the covers sobbing and crying and just wanting everything to go away.

What is it?

Depression?

How do you live a life in which you need to be surrounded by someone, anyone, (interesting), all the time? Every single minute of your waking time.

You don't.

xoxo
Amelia.

Hazy

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed
You don't know this now but there's some things that need to be said
And it's all that I can hear, It's more than I can bare

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy..

Last night you told me that in this week, you feel like you're more in love with me than ever before. All morning, and all night after that, it's all that's been repeating, going on and on in my head. I am glad, I am happy, I am relieved to hear you say that almost. I've never been in relationships for longer than 10 months and whenever I see my friends around me with relationships that last more than a year even, I ask myself.. how do they do that? How does one stay in love for so long.. but you know what? We're coming to our 16th month this coming weekend, and I finally get it. When you're with the right person, being in love comes so naturally. I don't ever have to try too hard to love you or make you love me. It really does come naturally. No matter how hard I try to love less because I am afraid of being hurt, I can't ever do it.

You pick me up when I am down, you provide your chest/shoulder for me to cry on, you comfort me when I need to be comforted, you make me laugh as much as you can. Most of all, you try to keep me happy as much as you can.  

Yat Jun, you are my one in a million and I am so happy and blessed to be in love with you.

Lots of kisses,
Amelia xoxo

Don't understand

I have long neglected this blog and I feel awful about this.

I have something to say and until I get my shit sorted out I'll return to the blogging scene.

I am not right in the head and I need to fix myself instead of pretending to the world that I am okay, that I am sane, that I am happy.

I am horribly unhappy with who I am. Yet again.

Anybody willing to lend some good advice etc, you know where to contact me. (aka in person or emails etc-- i will appreciate it.)

Right now I just need to focus on not trying to kill myself.

Lots of love,
Amelia x

Happy Valentines Day

I was so undeserving,
And yet, you were
so relentless.

            I pushed - you pulled
            I wept - you embraced    
            I bled - you repaired
            I faltered - you shushed
            I stopped - you smiled

I was a disaster --
 the worse of its kind.

            And yet, you still
             had the audacity
             to let me know
             that I was beautiful.

Credit: x

Happy Valentines Day baby, I am so happy to call you mine and proud to be yours.

You are the best and I love you.

Yours,
Amelia. 

...

ARGH. I TYPED A REALLY LONG POST ABOUT A VERY SENSITIVE ISSUE IN MY LIFE and blogged deleted it. THANKS.

Anyway, when I get the mood again, I'll type it all out. IT TOOK me FORTY minutes to type out what I had lor and I still wasn't finished. DAMN YOU BLOGGER :( hahaha

Maybe some other day.

My FA3 exam went by quite well I must say. (I don't know how well, but I think I did quite decent! :D) and I've got my mandarin paper this friday and I will be free from the shackles of exams!!!!!!!! Hooray! Going to celebrate it by cooking Vegetable curry for all my loved ones (i.e Jun Diana Sinda and Cheryl) to eat! I hope it turns out well and then we are going to FINALLY watch Les Mis in the cinema after dinner and hopefully go dancing on Saturday! REJOICE! happy.

My life is going pretty well atm. If you read my twitter, I really don't know why I get so down sometimes. IT IS WEIRD. Hmm. Sorry, I apologize lol. SO negative. I don't think I actually feel that way but maybe at that time it was just loads of pent up frustration in me and like twitter is my only medium of getting it out of me.

Hmm.

Anyway, talk to y'all soon!

OH. 4km in 30 mins on the treadmill today. I AM SO HAPPY. I used to do 5km in about an hour/50 minutes  so I must say this is quite a feat! :D Thing is I started not being able to run very much (could NOT run continuously for 10 minutes lol) but now I can.. sorta.. and ahh I'm so proud of myself. Well done Amelia! *pats self on back* LOL

Okay. I sound so hyper. I am actually feeling so darn hyper right now and it's 11PM. Wtf anyway, babes is coming round after his intensive revision for his exam on Wednesday (poor boy has 5 in a week) and I really need to pee now.

Blog soon!

Lots of love and thanks for checking it ;)

Amelia XXXX

Cake..

Ah, here I am. 10.44PM on a Saturday night, having just spent over 13 hours in the library revising for my exam this wednesday. What could I possibly be doing at such a time after what I've been doing all day long?

Baking a cake. That's what I am doing.

Not just any cake, I am making a an Olive Oil Lemon Cake ala In Jennie's Kitchen.

I am excited for the outcome! I've been wanting to make this cake in the longest time and I guess to me, this is the best time. Cake soothes all souls. Tired souls. Hungry souls. Angry souls. Stressed souls.. especially stressed souls. I'm going to hope this cake turns out well so that I can distribute them lovingly among my lovely stressed ones. (Mostly Cheryl.. followed by.. Sinda.. followed by Jun & Diana.. although I won't be seeing Diana tomorrow I think so I don't know if she'll get to eat it. lol) but yeah. Cake is the best thing in the world.

I love cake so much. I love it as much as I love making them. I have so many baking plans for this year! So many recipes to try!!!!! So exciting. Hehe I've already promised Sinda a cheesecake for her birthday as well, so I need to go on another recipe hunt to look for the perfect cheesecake to bake for her!!!!

Jun is coming by later and I can't wait. Never mind the fact that I only just saw him a little over 4 hours ago, I can't wait to see his face and I can't wait to have him to hug and kiss again. Excuse the overdosage of "sweetness" here but nearly 14 months with this man and everyday I still feel my heart race and sing whenever I see him. Ahhhh. I hope to be perpetually on this cloud 9. It is such a nice warm fuzzy feeling. Jun.. he really does make my world a better place. I am always so thankful :)

Okay then, 20 more minutes till this cake is done and I cannot waitt!! I'm gonna play some games I downloaded for my iPhone.. OH YA. I haven't blogged since the New Years, well, I've gone over to the "dark" i.e Apple side of things for phones. I'll touch on this subject next time :P hehe

Anyway, I do believe I am the luckiest girl in the world sometimes.

Mostly because I have so many who are willing to love the mess that I am.

Lots of love,
Amelia XX

Pre Exam Week

Ugh. Exams. Exams. Exams. Same old. One would think that after 17 years of academia, one would be used to having exams.

NO.

lol.

On the contrary, they make me even more scared than before.

Wish me luck! I'll be back on the blogging scene after the 16th! ^_^

Lots of love,
Amelia xx

Lucky 7 Canteen, Glasgow

Had a 2D/1N trip down to Glasgow with Cheryl the past two days and it was such a good trip! Especially since it was after boxing day therefore all the good deals are still up and running. Managed to score myself a new pair of boots from Jones since my one and only sensible pair of boots is dying after 1.5 years of constant wear.. yeah Amelia, why didn't you buy more sensible shoes instead of the array of shoes that are not made for Aberdeen or even UK's weather?! Anyway, I got the boots for a lovely 50% off and therefore only paid £87! Such a bargain and it is so nicely made as well. Very happy with my purchase. Also bought an ensemble from Urban Outfitters because everything was nearly 50% off as well. Happy days! Also managed some boxing day sales shopping in Aberdeen and scored some new clothes and makeup. Happy bunny! :D

Anyway, while we were down in Glasgow we managed to sample some excellent food, we had some really nice dimsum for lunch at Chinatown Restaurant, lovely spanish tapas and sparkling sangria for dinner at  Cafe Andaluz. The next day we sampled some good malaysian fare at Rumours Kopitiam which brought back plenty of memories and for dinner headed to where I will be blogging about today:

Lucky 7 Canteen.

166 Bath Street, Glasgow

We both started off with a cocktail each and I must say, as a drinker of many cocktails, their cocktails were beautifully done with lots and lots of "liao" (in english: ingredients). I had an Orange and Lime Caipironska while Cheryl enjoyed an Apple and Cucumber collins. Both were very much appreciated. Also, plus points to this restaurant/bar was that the minute we sat down, a waiter came round with tap water without us asking! That was very much appreciated. Also, I must say that the service in this restaurant was very very good. Our water was always topped up and service was prompt and helpful! :)

The place itself was very lovely, welcoming, very very cosy. There is a lovely bar area in the front when you open the main doors and if you're looking to have a meal, they have ton of seats inside of the restaurant. I definitely enjoyed the decor and atmosphere. :)

For the mains, I ordered a dish that consisted of seared salmon with braised rice, wilted greens in a lemon and dill cream sauce. It was delicious! I finished off my plate of food in 8 minutes (or even less! considering towards the end I realised how fast I was eating and was trying to slow down/ dilly dallying with my drink etc.) I wasn't even that hungry to begin with! The salmon was done very nicely and the sauce was perfect. It wasn't too think to the point of being "jelat" so I definitely enjoyed it.

Cheryl ordered Confit of pork belly with colcannon potatoes & a cider/honey glaze. I tried her potatoes and boy, were they freakin' amazing! I don't know what they put into the potatoes but it was excellent! There was a taste that I couldn't distinguish and I enjoyed it very much so I can imagine just how much Cheryl enjoyed her dish as a whole! The gravy was very lovely as well. Both our dishes costed £10.

For dessert, Cheryl ordered a double nougat with lovely creamy vanilla ice-cream sandwiched in between and berry sauce slathered over it. She told me that she really enjoyed her dish. To be honest, I have never seen such a dessert so it is definitely something very unique. This dessert was £3.50.

I ordered a Cranachan which is a Scottish dessert consisting of fruits, oats, whisky and cream. Safe to say I enjoyed my Cranachan very very much. It was light and fluffy and the sweetness was just right. I was also given a shortbread cookie with it which I appreciated very much as well.  This too was £4.25.

The total bill came up to a lovely £37.75 for a two-course meal with cocktails for two which I would say was very worth it and reasonable. The two courses filled us up very well and the atmosphere was just lovely to be in and the service was great.

When I visit Glasgow again in the future, this is one of the places that I will most definitely be returning to. I've already told Jun that we will go there the next time we make a trip down to Glasgow! :)

I hope y'all enjoyed this review and if you ever head down to Glasgow, to try this restaurant out. Let me know what you think!

XOXO
Amelia