Yes, I am super bored. :( Tuition is in 3 hours but still. I like blogging even though I am quite sure not much people read this crap. but yes, i shall let things out. I think i wanna open up an LJ account only because it looks so fun. Maybe I will and password protect the whole shiz so I can finally rant rant rant on the internet without any fear someone might read it and pass the whole shit on. and Yes, I will then be called a bitch, and all whatnots and get blamed for hurting people's feelings.
Of course Becky, you'll have the password.
I'm fearful and insecure, paranoid and annoying, bitchy and cowardly. Yes, I am admitting to all those. I am as insecure as hell, paranoid like what and can be pretty annoying. I am aware that I know alot of "friends" who pretend to be nice to me and at the back they backstab like shit. But its cool, the people who do that to me, I'm probably doing the exact same thing back to you. I am aware that there IS some people out there who hates my guts. The ones that wishes I get rammed down by a cement truck or accidentally slipping and breaking my skull. I know I can be extremely bitchy and two-faced. But its only because I don't like you. And the only reason I probably don't like you is because of the way you are to me.
Yes, I know what you people say about me behind my back. Saying i cannot be trusted, that I like multiple guys at one time, a player, a two-faced bitch. Some call me ugly, stupid, whiny, fat, and all sorts of names. You think i'm not hurt by this? Of course I am. I have feelings, emotions okay. Its like. Dude, if you dont like me, fine dont like then. Noone's making you like me you know. But spreading stuff around that I am "inlove" with multiple guys and that all i do is bitch is completely immature. and the stuff about me being ugly? hahahah. OK. I never said I was beautiful or anything yeah. Its like, if you think i'm that ugly, dont bother talking to me lah. or looking at me. Sure, I have my fair share of gossiping and I have probably said one or two mean things about you. but still right. pfft. I'm not being unfair. I am only being human. Who likes to gossip and be gossiped about. I know i'm totally contradicting myself. but yes. Just thought i'd let this little thing out.
You know what, i'm not even sure what I'm blathering about. this all. random things coming to my mind. I dont even think the whole two paragraphs before this one make any sense. Whatever. I like typing on this laptop. The keyboard is so comfortable. lol
I am in the process of creating a livejournal. I will find out how to password protect the whole shit. hahaha ;D okay. apparently, we cant. not unless we pay for the thingo. damn. Maybe i'll get a xanga. No wait, i already have a xanga. Can we password protect the posts? :S hmm.
Infatuation is such a bitch. haha I mean being infatuated is a such a bitch/pain in the ass. Its like yeah. completely crappy. but somehow, nice at the same thing. I don't know. Maybe not nice at all. just crappy, and emo... I hate how things tend to stay in my mind for a very long while and I waste time thinking about the same things over and over again. So blah.
I also hate how people expect you to just wait. Its like, you wanna eat but the food just won't come. Its like. Hello? I've been waiting for a couple of months cant you just give me what I want?
I dont like circle theorem in D-maths. Such a pain in the ass. Its like i find out the solution to every angle but one and the question wants the angle which I am not able to solve. Like what? So frustrating you know. Its like yeah. Puts me off. Maybe thats why i dont like like maths. I try to like the subject but I just freaking cant. bloody hell.
Speaking of bloody hell, i was reading some stuff on the internet. and I realised that I wont be reading much about RONALD WEASLEY anymore. (yes, took me2 months to come to that) Since he's like married to Hermione and all. Damn. I will miss that weasley boy very much. Him and his little fear of spiders. Haha. Luckily we still Rupert Grint to make up for the next few years. =D
yes, being very random. but that's okay right. I mean, like if you're totally bored and have nothing to do. You'll prolly be thanking me for wasting your time :D haha. Or I should be thanking you that you're actually reading? I dont know anymore.
I'm so unsure about everything. -_-" I hate making choices because I always end up with the wrong choices. Its like the sinfully good Nasi Lemak and a plain salad. which do you choose? of course the nasi lemak right. But you'll regret later. Thats it, I always regret my choices and that sucks cause its not like anyone else made the choice for me. blah. At least if someone else made the choices, i can totally blame them. but no....... blah.
I am feeling abit down, and emo.
sorry much.
Lovelove;
Amelia.
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