Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

I just want Rebecca and Chloe right here right now with me.

I want to die (emotionally). Just drift off and never ever come back.

I really don't like it. Not one bit. I hate emotions. They always ruin things. I want to be soul-less, an empty shell. So I can take everything that people throw at me. So I won't feel like shit ever. I think I could give happiness up for that. I just want to be numb.

Numb.