“My second grade teacher liked to ask us, “How do you feel today, on a scale of one to ten?”
Ten always meant I’m super, thank you and one was always not today, Mrs. MacAuley, not today.
But I never liked numbers, they would always twist and rebel against my mind so I chose to speak in colors instead.
January third - I am the color of mint chocolate chip ice cream but I’ve eaten all the chocolate chips. I am calm.
February seventh - I am a bruise of blues and violets today. I think it would be best if I sat by the window. These are unhappy colors.
April eleventh - I am turquoise, I am magenta, I am every color in the rainbow.
April thirtieth - I am gray, I am silent.
May first - I am orange, the color of melting creamsicles on a beach in July.
June twelfth - I am as yellow as the school bus that will bring me home to summer. I am free.
Twelve years later, I still use colors.
The winter makes me feel cobalt blue, the ocean turns me a seafoam green.
Violets and purples leave me uneasy and scarlet is a fever of fury.
Some nights I drown in shades of navy, denim, and cornflower but other nights I meditate in forests of harlequin and shamrock.
But you, you leave me a blinding white followed by a soft yellow: the color of sunlight after a period of darkness.”
--Kelsey Danielle, “A Diary of Colors”
And just like that we're another month older. I don't know how Jun does it but he gives me all these feels that I can't seem to explain. Good feels mostly,
Of course :)
We haven't been speaking as much this week since he's got exams going on and I miss him a lot. #overlyattachedgirlfriend haha To be completely fair, I am used to speaking to him every single day. (T_T)
Love you babe! Here's to hoping your exams go extremely well. :D can't wait to resume our daily talk schedule haha.