emergency tissues and friends =D

as many whud know, i use tissues as bookmarks yes. when i read books i use tissues as bookmarks. for those who dont know, i just told you >.< anyway, during tuition today, my little toe hurted. ( is that a word?). and it was bleeding and shits and i was asking for tissues and plaster and garry says,dont you have that emergency tissue? and tadah!

see my poor toe. haiz.

oh yes, i AM HAPPY TODAY cause i found my :
booyah! i got it finally yeah. i got the frreaking blue version yo. limited edition OK HAH. hahahahaha HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAH HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAhAHAHHAHAHAHA. :)

oh and, see this.
its sexy cause someone sed it is. HAHAHAHHA :P lol. its supposedly the monkey that kimberly's grandma was throwing javelin sticks at. (Y) dont kno abt the curly tail. might be a quarter pig. hahahs =)

oh and fact #8465456 :
lol. real friends do the peace sign yaw (Y). hahahs thats gary and mine. =)

thats abt it. im happy and should really be practising my piano. so taa my lalengs. :)

<3,
Amelia.
whoa. everything goes according to plan.

=) i love my dog.

the pic above. OMG CAN. HORRIBLE VICTORIA BECKHAM HAS LIKE THE GOLD VERSION MOTOROLA V3I which is like the limited ed razr. knn THATS WHY I WANNA MARRY DAVID BECKHAM. ( no, i dont think victoria's horrible, jealous bahh. hahah)

and isnt my dog the cutest ever? and the pig. hahah pictures taken by karen cause she was jobless just now. the pig shall be my trademark now :D speaking of pigs , benny drew this on my hand just now -_- hahahahs. paloi kan. :


its cute huh? my mom thinks its cute anyway. hahah dont ask me why its nose so cacated in the world. most prolly cause its artist is just as cacated. HAHHA ok. sorry benny if you read this ;). i cant offend benny cause he's my sexy leader. HAH! -_- wait. i'll show you what sexy is :

wooot. yes. damn right he is. :D HAHAHHA. my koreannn hottie. gah. hes like total hotness la. if he ever has a concert in brunei. i will buy his tickets and sleep outside the stadium waiting for him to arrive. :D HAHA

and just know during malay, chua and aston slept YES, our class is boring. bleh and i tried disturbing chua and he went all cranky like and saying whattttttttttttt? while still sleeping -_- and he has scary red eyes when he woke up hahahs. and yeah. heh

i love my best friends :
yes i do. if nestum sees this, she will kill me. BUT I DONT CARE. HEHE today right, sicne you know, becky and me same class while nestum diff kan. so me and becks went to toilet and like we signalled at nes's class. so she like came out and was asking us what?what? so i formed the words " TOI" with my fingers. i mean obviously it means TOILET right. hahahs but agnes baboooon wah. she go ask teacher sign a piece a paper cause she taught we wanted to have a meeting. wtf. HAHAHA so paloi can. we ended up staying off class for like 15 minutes and had a trip to the canteen and all. hahas. it was funny. and we took pictures in the toilet then we met angel. who was screaming bout some 5 legged spider thingy in one of the cubcicles so, me and nes went to check it out. aww crap. shud have taken a pic but it was like really gross la. hahaha.

i know i know, im not making much sense, my grammer is crap. spelling is shit. but i dont care. haha i feel like bloggin shitloads. =D hahahs ohhhh and we the group for the entreitoiuret thingy are going off to dianas house on monday to cook. YES. we shall cook. (Y). the bomb yaw. hahahahs uh and im off to miri on wednesday. MY BRACES MIGHT be coming off. not sure yet. =) and. im fat.

i ate japanese food for lunch just now and gary is jealous cause i get to eat japanese food every saturday. =) hehe and he was complaining cause he was only eating mee goreng. bleh. dont be sad gary, mee gorengs are just as good =). oinky oinks. i love it when my mother agrees to gossip with me. hahah fun wah =D lol. uh and i love panic at the disco. cause they rock.

yes they do >< =D diana called me just now to tell me something and yes. she was in church just now. =) and then i called j.yeo cause i had to ask abt his blogger details. ooh and i also callled agnes to talk cause shes all alone at home cause her rents went to miri and werent back yet. im currently chatting to marlene (whos not replying after i aske dher if she's watched i not stupid two yet), cody (whos also not replying cause cause i dont know -.-) and jeremy (about evil stupid pimples and their ideas of world domination but he isnt replying yet cause i think espped fucked up again).

speaking of which, he just did. anyway. espeed is a bitch, it never works when yo uwant them to :| really so sad ok. bleh. uh. june is coming. about one more month to my <3's BIRTHDAY YES.

oh and i was supposed to do like a new layout now for myself but i was too busy with someone elses. i already have the nice picture but im sure mr alex wouldnt like it. bleh you. hahahah he was like showwing me the different between infatuation and love. BUT I DONT CARE> LALLALA cause i like you know this guy and i dont care which it is. cause we're only 15 we're still dammmm young ok. -_- lol. its not like im gonnna marry him like tomorrow yaw. then that would be um somthing to think abt. =) hahahahs but it'll be nice. HAHAHAH ok, im totally shitting right now. ok. um i better stop before unwanted nonsense start flowing out.

tatas my darlings.
<3,
Amelia.

and if its quite alright, i need you baby. to warm my lonely night. i love you baby.......................

thats a nice song no? :)

/ / edit: i just realized blogger didnt post up some of the things and my blog looked fuxcked up. KNN WHY ISNT ANYTHING WORKING RIGHT? -_- fuck espeed, fuck msn and fuck blogger. grr. other that that, i'm pretty happy. byeeeeeee.

Sad la.

Oh dear i just realized how ganas my last post was. But, i AM stressed out la. Bleh so i'm sorry about all the swear words and shit. Bleh. Sorry yes.

There's so many things thats sad. Why is it that everytime a girl has this huge crush on this guy.. She like doesn't have the guts to talk to him, she gets all shit nervous and stuff. And i don't only speak for myself i speak for all the girls in the world. I mean, cmon ok.. You'll be shitting me if you say you've never been in this situation ok. Its true wah. And.. What if this guy right, you don't see him everyday in school? Only because he's in a completely different school.. And everytime you do get to see him, you're all shy and shits? Sad huh? Bleh. And then, everytime before you see him, you promise yourself that you'll finally pluck the courage to talk to him but of course, you wont when you see him. Bleh sad la.

Therefore the quote..
I'M NOT THE GIRL WHO JUMPS AT THE MOMENT TO TALK TO YOU, NOR AM I THE GIRL WHO RUNS TO YOU WHEN I SEE YOU. I'M THE GIRL WHO DOES NOTHING AND ENDS UP REGRETTING EVERYTHING LATER. =(

really wah. And no, this isn't the reason i was mad yesterday. Bleh and thank you, jason yeo for the email. =) it did cheer me up abit hehes. And what i did today? Nothing special yes. The usuals since todays friday. I'm at malay tuition now and the teacher is nagging so i got bored and decided to blog. Cause i've been thinking alot about this person you see. And yeah =X heh. Grr. The teacher so damn annoying la. Bleh. Oh, and i went to the mall just now and jalaned around lor. Thats all and then i had the long awaited maths tuition. Haha. Ok not really, not for maths anyway >.< haha.

I don't know if this entry is long.. But using phone to blog it looks pretty long leh. But oh well. I don't have anything to blog about liao. But the teacher is still nagging so i shall blog nonsense. Haha. =)

right now, Shandy's beside me twirling her pen, while andrew is infront of me staring at the paper since we're studying ringkasan now. Haha and Hon is looking at teacher. On the other table, Veronica is.. uh. I dunno how to describe haha and Hui King is drawing on her paper or is she doing the ringkasan? Hmm. And here i am blogging haha. Heh the annoying teacher is now asking Hon whats the difference between sympatize and pity. Bleh. Wtf can? He's so bleh. Haha its raining outside now heavy and with thunder and some lightning which is good cause its not so hot since i'm wearing double layer and long jeans and my hair is down. Don ask why i don't tie my hair. Sadly, unfortunately.. I lost my rubber band. I must have left it in maths tuition. Ah damnit bleh. Heh. Shandy just talked to me. She says i've been playing with my phone since i came in. Oh good. The teacher just stopped nagging not that i'm gonna stop blogging bleh. Unless he catches me then there'll be trouble. I'll just say i'm messaging my dad heh. We're doing a malaysia form 5 paper. And teacher says if those malaysian fellows can do it, why can't you? Knn obviously, malaysia's malay language higher standard ok.

Gawd. Its getting cold now. Hooray. This is making me miss korea's weather. I wish it snows in brunei. Now, that would be fun. We'll have more clothes and winter clothes are so cute ok. Totall cutenes and then we can do snow angels! Haha fun wah. Then we can ski at the shahbandar hill. Haha and stuff. Then we can have all those snow shoes and boots aiya. I want snow! And then we all shall be fair and pink and our hair shall always be in the better condition. Heh.

I better stop now yes. Should be long la i type so much. I bet i'll get a shock when i check the computer, the paragraphs are so little then i shall scream. Haha

<3,
Amelia.

=(

im pissed. very very pissed. i've just finished ranting to becky on the phone for 30 minutes. im stressed, very very stressed. really i am. =( :'( I FEEL LIKE CRYING MY LUNGS OUTTT. and the only person who knows what is going on is becky so dont even try to guess ok. !%^#&@%(*&amp;$@(*&$@ cause even if you wanna know, i'm not gonna tell. =( im goonnna keep it all inside until my lungs feel like bursting and my heart feels like breaking =( i wanna cry till my eyes are fuck swollen till they cant be swollen no more and i want to. bite alot of people. bite, kill whatever is better. is it so difficult to refrain yourself from saying "anything, or, whatever, or, anything also can la"? ????? THE ONLY FUCKING REASON I FUCKING ASKED YOU FOR YOUR OPINION WAS TO HEAR YOUR OPINION OK.not to head, whatever or shits ok. MUTHAHUMPERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS &#$&^ grr.

Eight below

Today, my mom brought me to Empire cinema to watch eight below. you know that movie with those huskys? its a great movie. damn touching and i cried until like i finished a whole packet of tissue ok. HEHE sad bah so like, right now .. my eyes are prettty swollen still. SO CUTE OK THE DOGS? and so smart againn. realllyy. like realllllyyyy realllllllllyyyy smart yaw. haha

nothing much. i got maths tuition tomorrow afternoon (psst: becky ;);) HEHEHEH) and yeah/ thats all. I WISH my brother whud come back to bruneii =x blehhhh

<3,
Amelia.

i lover you.

alex - DONT EAT BABIES!. theyre cuteeee >< bleh eat those stupid adults la. hahah their meat tougher. =/ blehs

kim- your welcome. remember, i'm always there for you yes =)

carrie - thanks =) hehehs

abby - Hii =)

jason - never mind, don need to be first tagger la. just tag can liaos =)

shim - hi =)

judith - thats right, SING IT BABEH :P hahahah so lawa la that song.

esther - hii. =)

daph - yes benny =p and he's the leader again =/ not that hes doing anything :( bleh. yes yes yes! be a buyer and visit our stall yes? :D HEHE

nad - we're doing food daleng. and the last time i checked, notebooks and pencils werent edible. HAHAHAHS =D :P

edwin - hi you =) and its great you like the layout =)
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as you all might have noticed, i personally replied each and every one who tagged on my board today =) i have something to annouce. no, i wont be on hiatus but i shall not blog so very often anymore. im busy and have lots of things to think abt =/ bleh

i'll stop now cause i got more thinking to do and im missing someone like hell right now =) hehehs.

<3,
Amelia.
if love is stupid,
then ..
i stupid youu. <3

gahhh

hello all .yes, as much of you have guessed, the lady in red up there is noother than, Charlize Theron. yeah, alot of people say they can recognize and all but its her ok.

Anyways, a big thank you to those who bothers to tag everyday. that is : Gary, and Jason.Y. =) thnks yea. i bet without you guys, my site whud be partially dead. bleh and to those most of the times, Becky, Esther, Sheryl, Alex, Nadia, Kimberly and yeah =) and all you first time visitors, i hope you do tag and continue tagging. <3

I've been stressing much over little things like the econs fair thats coming up soon. and all my exam papers. sadly, as i've expected, i didnt do well in some of my papers and yeah, i suppose it is my fault for not studying at all. but my marks are just.. sad. very sad even becky cant say anything to cheer me up from my marks. But apparently according to agnes and angel who arnt in my class, that we need only 3 credits to get a position and hoorah. i HAVE 3 credits and i credited both english and malay. so its not that bad. its bad if i dont get a credit. thats just depressing. i mean, i have never been without a position ok. a position is a must for me :|

enough about the stupid marks, do you all know that the economic fair is on the 8th? well if you dont, i just told you. bleh. So this econs fair, im like totally stuck on ideas. I've got lovely diana, kimberly, agnes, jovita and benny in the group and yeah. =) Eversince primary, i've always wanted to join this econs fair but now im in it, i wish i never started. i mean, to think of what to sell annd at what price is driving me mad. Not that, noone is cooperationg of course. Its just stupid cause the our deadline to submit the entry forms are this saturday. so short notice can. =s and our group haven even come out with a name. knn -_-

oh oh, and gary's mom thinks im a decent girl =) HEHE im a decent girl yaw. hahaha its kinda cool i guess. when i told my mom, she laughed her ass off and was like, i bet gary laughed like siao when he tell you yes? haha but he did anyway. hahaha me and my mom were talking abt the times when i was little or when my brother was little. lol, all the funny things we used to do, makes me wish that i was still little, there would be so many things that i wouldnt have to think off. =) and yeah. i wouldnt be thinking, abt the marks, the econs fair, my weight, you, my height, my appearance, my friends and stuff. alot of things ok.

and i've caught panic!at the disco's music video. SO COOL CAN. i totally love but its better when we do is so nice =) ahahahs. and the song rocks too :D hehehs

I think this is all? mmm~ keep tagging my lovely taggers :)

<3,
Amelia.
i'll speak in riddles so that you can understand,
i'll draw in pencil so that you can trace in pen.
So inlove with me like sand to wet feet,
i'll write both our names in concrete <3


and i shall leave you all with a beautiful picture of my <3

theres him arriving back at korea... :D HES SO .. ack hahahaha

Thanks

Ok. The first testing passed and therefore i can blog with my handy dandy phone. Heh heh heh. Bleh anyway, thanks to everyone who gave nice comments about the layout and no one has guessed who is it! Haha tracy, no its not jennifer love hewitt. Hehe and shim and ryl and esther, its nice that you guys like the layout! Thanks =) haha and yeah actually its easier if i just say thanks to everyone la since nobody has given me a bad comment yet. Haha and since nobody can guess who is it, i'll give a clue haha she's the actress in aeonflux. So, if you haven watch then too bad haha. If noone guess by tomorrow i'll post up the answer la.

Today, we got back a couple of papers and i can't say i did well. Bleh haven failed anything la so yeah ~Bleh the lowest mark for poa paper 2 was half A mark my goodness horrible ok. Haha and then yeah bleh so depressing la all the marks heh.

And how many of you guys out there hate. I repeat hate people who Like when you're supposed to give orders right and those assholes out there keeps on answering back. Shit annoying ok. Bleh so knn ok heh.

And, has anyone seen over the hedge or the hills have eyes? If anyone has watched it, do tell on tagboard thanks. I'll end here yes. Hopefully all this shall be successfully posted bleh.

Bye dalengs,
<3
amelia.

Testing

I'm just trying if i can blog with the phone

New Layout.

Can anyone guess who the layout is featuring ? =)
i know its like damnn simple but i dunno what to do wahh. completely out of ideas. and im sorry. bleh. this is shit depressing =x anyway, the usual.. if theres any comments and shits post it on the tagboard.

cyus.

<3,
ame

guess what?

and thnks to jeremy =D hahahs. I HAVE PANIC!AT THE DISCO. how cool is that? HEHEHEHEH. =D its like reallly cool ok. =D and the disc is so prettyful and yeah =D hehehe cool la :D and you cant get the disc in brunei or spore or msia and apparently according to kim, you cant find it in australia too =x is it really that difficult? BUT I DONT HAVE TO CARE ANYMORE BECAUSE I HAVE THE FREAKING DISH. NYAHAHAHA heh heh hehz

i have my jasc back thanks to darling marcus =D hehe and i shall do my layout soon. nothing else happened today so, i'll end here and start on my layout. expect something simple please i have not thought much abt the layout. On the lighter note, My visitor count has gone past 12000 and thnk you all <3 and i've finished reading A-List the first book and am starting on grim tuesday. =)

<3,
Amelia.

completely

in love. =x like crazy ok. this is crazy. everything i do its like, im obsessed already. not, in a stalker kind of way mind you. but its just that, like what becky sed, this guy, has just made me gone completely wacko. and i dont even see him everyday. you guys have no idea ok. its prolly worse than my other situation off from last year kay? thats just how bad it is. heh.

Anyways, my eyes are like SO heavy and i dont know why. so difficult la. i cant sleep, i cant do anything. =( getting sleep is like SO difficult when i keep on thinking abt "things". not good, not good. im getting panda eyes already and EVERYONE knows panda eyes are just so not nice. for girls la. and my aircon so crazy. one moment its completely hot and im sweating my ass off and the next, im freezing like i'm in north pole and i pile on sweaters after sweater. =s bleh.

I watched i not stupid 2. well 3/4 of the movie anyway. not bad. funny at parts, damn kelian at parts and some were very annoying. but its cool cause the two guys that one, complete hottie ok. oh and speaking of hotties. my Korean hottie, HAS DONE A SONG IN MANDARIN. (and for those of you whos new to the blog. my one and only hottie shall be. : rain/bi/jung ji hoon whichever you prefer) and the MV is like woot man. TOTAL CUTENESS YAW. like really <3 hahahs

talkin to becky on the fone. LIFESAVER YO. i was like crying to sad love songs. then she called
and i glowed. HO HO HO. ok i was just being very emosi. ok. im busy now. toodles darlinggs <2

Amelia.

Outing with one of my bfs.

And thats best friends ok you pervs. hahahahah =p not boy friends. bleh.

Today, we had our add maths paper which wasnt good yeah. =x i didnt have enough time to finish and was clearly rushing at the end of the paper. BlEH. =/ didnt finish the paper. But. .we shall not talk abt the evil exams. cause its evil. We shall talk abt something that happy. that make you go happy happy joy joy. ok maybe not you, me lah =)

and of course, i shall like to tell you all. BALD MONKEYS are cool. heh happy ibrahim? now nobady shall say your not cool. cause being a bald monkey is special ok. be happy. >< bleh.

Oh yes, the outing i had with nestum. We started off at 12.45 at excapade and we ate our way till 2.00 pm. we talked and all. so long ok i haven talked to her. bleh and we laughed alot and was damn full at the end of the lunch. Then i told her that i not stupid 2 dvd come out liao so we went to that dvd shop to buy and then we walked to the mall. Upon reaching the mall, we headed to that nail artz salon and wanting to get a ped. But, that lady wasnt there so we opted for a leg massage. hahaha Was relaxing and stuff. almost slept. =x bleh ^^ hahah Then after that, our legs were SO slippery from the cream and oil so when we walked, our feet kept slipping in our heels and we were walking so cacatly. hehehhes Then we walked to booker to find my books (and i promised agnes there was gonna be magazines - then only she agreed to walked there :P) BUT. alas, sad to say there was only one teenage magazine so she was abit annoyed hahaha and plus the boooks i was looking for there also no stock. bleh. So we went back to the mall and went to Best eastern where i found two books that i was looking for and agnes got her magazines =D hahah she was like, " eh you la. can come here can already want me to walk all the way to booker again. " hahahha sorry wah ness. how i know? then hor, we went to euro classic where i got some things and we ended up in coffeebean, her with her usual mango vanilla and me with my usual caramel ice blended. and then nes wanted cheesecake so we got one also lor. then we sat outside coffebean and drank our drinks and ate the cheesecake and talked and laughed like siao chabos. haha i bet we scared that other table ok. haha And then we went home. ok sure, it sounds all boring and stuff but it wasnt ok. not to me anyway =p it was fun and i'm still fulll!! heh.

and tonight my mom sed shes cooking one of my favourite dishes. and HOW LEH? i eat i put on weight =s i shall have to exercise yaww. heh oh andd my mom wants to bring me out for a movie on saturday night. yay-ness =D dunno what show we're watching tho. its gonna bea t empire as usual since she hates the mall and all =x =) im gonna watch i not stupid two tomorrow. HEHEHE i know very outdated but dont blame me la. i didnt get to catch it on the cinema wahhh =x bleh.

ahh and tomorrow morning i shall be free. and i shall sleep. no actually i cant. i will wake up at 8 and use the computer then. =x heh and then afternoon still got tuition. =x not that im complaing :D hahah ok. i end now.

toodles darlings.

xoxo,
Amelia.

physics is the worst yaw.

HELLO.

Alex - yeah no debates la. but if you musttt~ since you are like my regular tagger. i suppose you cud sometimes. not all the time (Y) hehehs. im so nice yes.

Tomorrow we have our last paper that is : add maths (my other enemy besides physics). and today we had physics (#1 enemy) and Mse. YOU SEE, PHYSICS IS A PAIN IN THE ASS. LIKE THE WORSE OK. STUPID KNN PAPER. :( i might just get a zero. bleh its that bad ok. SNIFF. i studied for like 4 hours last night on physics only and i still dont get any shits. and then because of that, i didnt have time for mse. and i'll prolly fail my mse too. :( so sad ok blehh. :( then tomorrow maths. hopefully i can do la. HOPEFULLY :( bleh. i dunno. so sucky all these *(@^#$(*$ subs heh.

On the brighter side, after the evil paper tomorrow, i'm going out with agnes. First stop : excapade for japanese food (=D) then, since over the hedge (that overly CUTE movie) isnt out tomorrow but evil friday, we might either catch some other crappy show or go get a pedicure done or something like that =D then before we go home, we shall of course, head over to coffeebean. hahahahs. see, even i know whats gonna happen tomorrow. its always the same. :D its like a bloody ritual already ok. not that i mind. i'm happy that my mom is letting me out tomorrow even. today at lunch :
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Me : Mom, tomorrow i go out for sushi with nestum ya..
Mom : *silence*
Me : uh. ma........... did you hear me?
Mom : *silence*
Me : fine. i shall ask you 5 minutes later.
- 5 minutes later -
Me : Mom, tomorrow i go out for sushi with nestum ok.
Mom : aiyah. anything you want la.
Me : OMG. really? i mean, i can make the decision whether i want to go or not?! first time la. HMM.. lets see.....
Mom : Talk so much, i say no then you know.
Me : ok ok. i'm going. =D
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and read this conver :


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amelia
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
amelia
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
gimme an A
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A
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
gimme an M
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Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
L
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
gimme a I
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
I
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
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Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
A
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
Amelia amelia
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
she's the best
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titilandus says:
she the one who'll beat the rest
can't take my eyes off youu. says:
HAHAHA

ok that was a a conversation between me and ibrahim (the bald monkey). so random can.

ANYHOOS. Im having add maths tuition later at 4.45 hooray =x heh i'll go now.

<3,
Amelia.
Putti PomPom ; bambardos steamboat. nyehhh ><

New temporary layout.

Ok. new layout peeps. hahah very familiar yes? i made this layout earlier this year for nadia. but she stopped using so i decided to use it cause a) i'm in need of a new layout (cause, i dont have any time to make a brand new one) and b) i love the song. =) ehehehs really. hopefully and most probably i'll get the new layout done by end of the week. My last layout(the version 14) lasted me for a nmonth and thats like the longest i've ever had a same layout up for. =) but ok lah. i got the pictures i need for the new layout but i dont have any ideas and my jasc psp chose this exact moment to screw up. really, it like loads and stuff but it doesnt appear : so depressing. all the thousands of brushes i have downloaded and stuff all gone :( and some of them were really nice ok. bleh. anyway, alex helped me get this paint shop pro x and i havnt tried it out yet. it looks complicated and im afraid i wont be able to get brushes for it. gah the horror! but oh well, might as well give it a try. i mean, sure i cud always do the layout in the office where the laptop has jasc psp but then the internet connection here is SO slow. how the hell am i going to download all the multiple brushes? might take a year ok. blehh

That was a pretty long paragrach and bleh nothing else to say. OH i came back from school at 9 this morning cause we only had one paper. you know whats KNN WORTHY? the fact that our stupid muthahumper paper was the exactly clone of the 2004 paper which most of us didnt bother to go thru. not that i mind ok maybe i do. but still so BLEHH.and i slept for 30 minutes after the paper was done. SO tired ok. when i was writing the stupid ringkasan, my hand didnt feel like moving and my handwriting was shit. :( bleh so tired and lazy to think again. URGH. why have to study malay? i mean i'm ok with it. but............. haiz. -_- so depressing =s

AHh. how do i live by leann rimes is playing on the radio now. so nice. =) but but i still love accidentally in love. yesterday kan. i was letting gary listen to the song thru my ipod right. and then yeah then he followed my car and i on the song again and he was like "!!!, IS THE SONG EVERYWHERE?" i cant help it bah garry. its such a lovely song :D and. goodbye my lover is SO SWEET. yeah like becky says, james blunt sounds like hes dying but screw it. hahahah the lyrics are nice and i shall post them up now. :D

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child. (ok, this is just a little weird so ignore this line)
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you. (the bold and italics : MY FAVOURITE <3)

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

so nice..................
bleh.

ok, i'll end here. was supposed to rant abt pimples and shit like those cause oi made up a story you see. but im so lazy to continue typing and its long already.
OH and i got this off nadia's site. its the very fun conversation we had before she left for spore (but shes back anyway) and here are some of our fun moments =)

Ame: So why are you going to Singapore?
Nad: For the French Olympiade.
Ame: Oh why not go to Spain?
Nad: Why do I want to go to Spain?
Ame: Wait, what do they speak in Spain?
Nad: Spanish.
Ame: Then who speaks French?
Nad: -__-;; FRANCE
Ame: OH YEAH FRANNNCEE!
[The two collapse laughing like idiots]
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Ame: I got a Nanooo!!
Nad: REALLY! WHAT COLOUR?
Ame: White.
Nad: Cool! Now we're like you know...erm...What do they call them?
Ame: We are iPod Ying Yangs!
Nad: COOOOOOOOOL.
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Nad: I saw Rain on MTV [I usually despise him but being nice since Ame loves him]
Ame: I knoowww! Everytime he was on TRL I was either at tuition or with my friends
Nad: So he really does get clothed by Louis Vuitton ah?
Ame: Yeah, so if I marry him I get their clothes and handbags too. Cool kan?
Nad: YEAH! And like, if I marry Dougie I get clothed by erm...[Thinks of Dougie's endorsements]....erm....[Can't think of any]...
Ame: Dougie, urgh.
Nad: That's not fair. I was nice about Rain.
Ame: Fine, Dougie is okay lor.
Nad: Yeah, and Rain is okay tah.
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Nad: I regret buying the Nano.
Ame: WHY?
Nad: Such a rip off man. I could've gotten Creative's Zen which is much better.
Ame: Oh.
Nad: Yeah, when my iPod froze I told everyone not to buy it.
Ame: -__-;
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paloi can? hahah i miss nadia. WELCOME BACK TO BRUNEI THOUGH WE SHUD TALK SOME OTHER TIME <3

so taa~
Amelia.
i'll spend a lifetime with youuu~

goodbye my lover.

Shit. addicted to goodbye my lover - james blunt. ok the songs abit uh.. but the lyrics SO NICE OK. haha =D

becky - wtf are you talking about kan? what smiley? siaolang. HAHA

Today, we had english 2. which was easier thn the first ass test so it was ok. not enough time tho but i finished it anyway. =D bio was um. yeah~ the section c was like easy for eg, what are enzymes? and stuff like that la. so i saw the back and said to lina, " ehh. easy leh the questions :D" and yeah.we started i turned the page and swore. knn la. haiz. i mean ok la. i can answer but the balloons and pins they use to represent enzymes. wtf can? no freaking idea =s bleh. and then the mcqs so damn confusing. blehhhhhhhhhh. finished the paper in an hour and started
scribbling on the extra ruled paper and fell asleep soon after. slept for like 15 minutes ok. damn tired wahh =s Our next paper shall be bm2. which hopefully isnt difficult -.- and then on tuesday, poa (YAY) and mib (boo.) and then theres wed and thurs. so yeah not ending so soon.

Anyway you see, i was extra tired this morning because you see. I switched phones last night and set the time on my phone an hour earlier ( i did not notice at all!!) and then i set the alarm at 6 this morning. so the alarm rang at 5 in the morning and i didnt bother to look at the clock in my room. so i took out my uniform took a shower and stuff. Was freaking wondering why outside still so dark. heh so yeah i finish doing everything was about to call my daddy up when i realised it was only 5.15am. KNN ok. -_- so damn tired and then cannot go back to sleep :( so i studied. :D hehehehehehehehe. but yeah was shit tired the rest of the day =( haiz.

Had poa tuition just now and MARLENE didnt come. bleh shes like my laughing partner in tuition ok. hehehe =( but karen was dressed oh-so- sexy. because she was going for dinner after that. shit la she so skinny and then she tells me that somehow shes losing weight every week. shes like aneroxic skinny ok. -_- but nice la when wear all kinds of clothes. eee jealous much. =( my mom said she has this model thing going on being skinny and tall and pretty. and then she looks at me and says" whats wrong with you?" knn. -_-

Gary just told me his mom and his aunty went to saigon. RANDOM can. all of a sudden go saigon hahahaha. ok now, that was completely pointless but yes. I hate pimples. stupid pointless things that pop out of your face when your least expecting it. it comes and never leaves :( i mean like IM SO NICE WAH ( :D) why have to get these evil things on my face? so unfair. bleh >.<

Ah. went to Orchid hotel to eat with relatives just now. aiyer so long haven eat with them. alot of cuzzen bonding time yes :D hahaha So dumass wah. my mom didnt tell me we were makaning with them right so i was wearing what. only a teeshirt and cutoffs. then she announces we're going to eat with them tonight. and yeah so knn couldve told me before right? i wear so cincai. heh then my cuzzen was wearing so nice. skirt again. and high heels. :( bleh but oh well. hehs took pictures =Da nds tuff.. you know what? my cuzzen wasnt always vain ok. she like totally hated taking pictures. but now. HEHEH so fun la. no sister but got cuzzen like this also (Y) hehehe.

ok, i'll end here.

LOVE,
Amelia.
More thn words.

Piano piece 1

This here is my piano examination piece ONE. this song, i have been playing for half a year in hopes of getting a merit at least for my grade six piano exam. this is only the first song. theres still two more songs =) hahahs. enjoy :D

CLICK ME TO LISTEN

hopefully, everyone can hear. HEHEHZ =) and comment la. the original song is faster one. but then if i did faster cannot hear anythin on the recorder thingy. =s hehz and gary complained abt the buzzing noise behind. excuse me for that one as i do not have a proper recorder and had to record with my old mp3. =)

<3,
Ame

chem and eng 1 todaeee.

HELLO MY DEAR READERS.
i like my taggers (alex, gary etc etc) so nice la. i like reading your tags and stuff. :D makes me smillleeeee early in the morning =)

If you reallly want to know, im currently eating Nesvita, apple and aloe vera Yogurt. very yummy stuff. sure apple and aloe vera sounds a tiny bit weird. but its niceeee :D and its also fat free. which is a big +. hahaha

READ THIS:
I just cant look, its killing meee. says:(me)
hahaha
- jason - It's not about the looks,its about the feeling says:(jason yeo)
funy kan?im serious....
I just cant look, its killing meee. says:
lol
I just cant look, its killing meee. says:
ok fine
I just cant look, its killing meee. says:
*puts on serious face*
- jason - It's not about the looks,its about the feeling says:
error:your msn messenger cannot support amelia's serious face becoz she doesnt have one......she alwez smiling
I just cant look, its killing meee. says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
I just cant look, its killing meee. says:
=p

so nice. ANYWAY .. we shall move on. you know what else is a good song? mr brightside - the killers. so lawa. and sad =s but so nice at the same time. YOU KNOW WHATS SAD?? fall to pieces - avril lavigne. so damn sad. always make me tear, that song. really wah. you go see the lyrics la. " you're the only one. i'll be with till the end." SO SAD OK. you say not sad i kick you. then then the chorus . " i dont want to fall to pieces, i just want to sit and stare at you. i dont want to talk abt it, and i dont want a conversation, i just want to cry infront of you. i dont wanna talk abt it cause im INLOVE with youuu~~~" so nice. i love that song.

and then hor. like that lor. yeah. OH. you wanna know how i did my chemistry paper today? you wan??? i know you want to know that i know what you want to know. bleh doesnt make sense but oh well. it was not nice at all. firstly, i did not study. (poo you. dont go,"nahh your fault wa. dont study." if you do that i shall do this _|_ hah!) ok. i mean i studied la. not completely didnt study at least i know the radioactive thingy can cure cancer cause of their gamma rays or something like that. and then i know the uh. protons and neutrons and electrons altho i did get a litttle mixed up and so i hantamed filled in the little boxes -_- hmm. never know ok. might just get it correct. finger crossed lorrr. heh.

and then english i wrote the title : a incident when someone changed behaviour suddenly and etc. i wrote that cause i cudent decide what to write. so i took the pen. closed my eyes. and dropped the pen. freefallll. ahahahha and the pen chose that incident shit. so i wrote it. i dont think it was good and im afraid teacher is gonna say im out of topic and give me a zero. imagine : amelia with a zero for compo. OOOOH the SHAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. i know right. haiz. so depresssing.

and on saturday we got..... biology and english 2 ( i think) not so sure abt the eng but damn sure bio is on sat. bleh. im soscared. I CANT FAIL BIO. what if i fail chem and phys? then like so dumb la. i mean if i fail all three science. i'm better of dead. everyone will be like " OMG. did you like hear? amelia failed all three science. so stupid meh her?" heh. so knn ok.

and the word knn. my felllow readers who dont know what it means, you shall not ask. because you see. its not a very nice word. its actually a very bad word and becky went "AMEEE!" when i told her the meaning. so yeah. i picked it up off friendster. and at first i started saying knn without any knowledge of the meaning until the day aston and gary figured out what it means. and yeah. but it stayed anyway eventho it means something not very nice and stuff. it beats saying kns anyway. kns like so common ok. hahha

ok ,this is a bit of a long blog. i shall go and feed on the little mini magnum and cornettos i saw in soon lee just now. no wait, i cant i told my mom not to buy it. ahh knn. =s stupid diet so restricting. :( but theyre very cute. do you not agree. i mean so tiny icecream cute wahhhhh :P

<3,
Amelia.
i is snuggable :D

amazing.

BRUNEI'S RADIO CHANNEL JUST .. (i repeat: JUST) PLAYED PANIC! AT THE DISCO SONG : But It's Better When We Do ~~ WHICH FREAKING MEANS. THEY'RE CD MIGHT BE ON SALE IN BRUNEI SOON. shit ok. i was like listening to my own music when i had an urge to stop and switch off my mp3 and on the radio and there it was. PLAYING. whoopedodoooooo. =D and i started screaming (in the car) OMG. OMG hahahah and my mom was like .. you siao ah. and yeah. it was a very emotional moment :D hahahhahahas.

ANYWAY. i love p!atd. they're music is the bomb. :D and eventho they have ridiculously long title that doesnt have anything to do with the song at all. theyre still the best. =D i absodutedly love their song. (yes, i didnt purposely spell absolutely, absodutedly wrong ok.) and kimposs asked her brother to help me look for the cd in aust but apparently he went to 7 cd shops in aust and couldnt find it at all. HMM. my brother on the other hand thinks theyre a stupid boring band and cant be bothered to help me find. heh

listen to notorious msg - dimsum girl. hahaha funny shit ok. =p listen to the lyrics properly. damn funny. =p

my gawd. i still cant believe brunei played panic. knn man. :P haahhahs

oh and todays exam : Malay 1 and d-maths. lets see : malay one. was ok. i put in some english words. for eg, satu kebaikan internet ialah awak dapat "download" file. Kadang - kadang, ada "virus" and so forth. you get the idea. bleh. like i had some brain block today ok. i cudent think af alot of malay words. its like so blehhhh. and d-maths. please. like diana said, we're gonna die and rot because of the maths paper. yes, it was that difficult. =( i SO do not see a future on maths for me. its like amelia and maths just dont click. sad. i know. =s

Tomorrow theres darling chemistry. Ionic bonding and Covalent bonding. Cations and anions. electrons, neutrons and protons. the chemical formulae. mrr, ar. the MOLE. i do not know wnaything. i may just fail and die and rot. =S this sucks i have so much to study and memorise but yet. im here blogging. i dont have the heart to study =( i got stuff to think abt. (yea yea yea not very important stuff. but is it my fault that it keeps bugging me??) heh.

oh and english one tomorrow. mrs shafee sed the highest mark she'll give is 22/50. like wtf much? my last composition she gave me a 12/25. wtf can. I HAVE NEVER SCORED SO FUCKING LOW IN ENGLISH. school work or exam, i never get. last time i used to get 8/10 or 8.5/10 then all of a sudden.... :( so sad. i feel so useless. if i cant do english .. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO? besides procastinating. (which i have to stop). =(

ok bye. i got my thinking to do.
& good luck to all sas readers or other schools too if youre having exams.

<3,
Amelia.
I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A.

Got this from http://fcukling.blogspot.com

About guys, Turned ON, OFF or DC(Don'tcare):
Is taller than you: On
Is shorter than you: Off
Wears braces: On, cuteness can.
Dresses Preppy: DC
Dresses Ghetto: Off
Dresses Gothic: Off
Has blue eyes: DC
Has green eyes: DC
Has hazel eyes: DC
Brown eyes: On
Drinks alcohol: On
Wears glasses: DC but preferably On
Smokes: Off
Plays sports: On
Smiles a lot: On, yes. smileeeee
Calls you just to say Hi: On, yes please =D
Compliments you: On, which girl dunwan?
Good dancer: On, hehehehe.
Wears jewelry: DC
Smiles when you walk in the room: On, =D
Has brown hair: On
Has Black hair: On
Makeup: Off, please. OFF ok.
Can make you laugh at any given moment: On, i like.
Loyal: On. just dont stick to me.
Laid back: On
Plays guitar: DC, piano the best.
Plays drums: DC.
Sing: On, sing.
Lean muscles: On
He can draw: On
Easily jealous: On, not too jealous la.
Doesn't eat meat: DC
Bisexual: Off, way offff.
Tattoo: DC
Has a lip ring: DC, but have also. ooo sexy ok. :D
Has tongue ring: Off
Has multiple piercings(ear): On. Just dont over do it.

HALLELUYAH.

MY FREAKING ITUNES IS WORKING. yesh. JOY TO THE WORLDDDD. the itunes is working. lalalalala.

and a bigass thank you to DIANA LAW YI PEI <3 HEHEHEHEHZ

and i shall blog abt mse tomorrow or something. im busy now ><

chem is a bitch who ought to rot in hell. and physics too HAH!

<3,
Ame.

apparently.

Apparently ..
I have an "inlove" face.

Today during recess, agnes came up to my class. and i was sitting at my place.with the fans and everything. sitting at my table, minding my own business staring out into space thinking about stuffs. when all of a sudden. "ehhh amee". it was agnes. my best friend (appart from becky) whos from another class.

"hi agnes, come in lah. so hot outside," I said.
" ok, (proceeds to walk in. reach my place and..) aiyohhh, stomachache ahhh (bends down)," she says.
"stomachache ah. sit on kim's chair la (proceeds to take kims bag off her chair and put it in hong jim's place). nah sit," i said with sheer concern. (lol)
"you want panadol?" i asked.
"no thanks anyway." She replies.
"you and your inlove face la. with who? :D" she asked with a grin.
"huh. i got inlove face?" i questioned her.
"yeah. when you stare out to space and just smile to yourself. freaky ok." she tells me.
"heh. i see. dont you have your stomach ache?" i tell her.
"oh yeah. i borrow your mobile ah call my mom." she says.

and wahlah. and becky agrees with agnes that i do have that weird face. cause she said when i went to her place early this morning, i was grinning like a crazy baboon. =D hahhahahaha

what can i say? =S but life has been going well. except the fact that our mye is only a day away. ahhhh. =s this is so sad. and i cant help but blog because.. blogging is fun. and i enjoy blogging.

I told agnes that after mye, we go out on a thursday or something (since thursdays are the only day im free) and she said ok. HEHEHEHEH i got a date after MYE. hehehehehs. but whether or not i can go is still a question i have yet to ask my mom =s

daddys getting me a mic so i can talk to my brother online and also (not that my dad knows) so that i can annoy rebecca and jason yeo online with short clips of my voice. you guys shud consider yourself lucky not everyone gets to hear my voice online. HAH

i want laguna beach's complete first and second season. yes, that was random but i SO want to see stephen (eeek. hottie alert ok). and see all those stupid bimbo girls at work. hahahhas.
ok, iwill go now. malay tuition :(

<3,
Amelia.

// oh and i will talk abt what we did during mse later tonight or something. no time now. :D

Googlism

Today's 07/050/06 but, i'm going to put this post dated as 08/05/06 cause i wont be blogging tomorrow. confusing? not really/ anyway i went to shim's site and found this.

go HERE click that and you will find yourself at Googlism. which i SO cool. type in your name and a list will appearrr and yeah. HEHEHS

So i tried and this is what i got after typing Amelia in : (all in brackets are add-ons by myself :D)

Googlism for: amelia

amelia is a single mexican woman from hermosillo
amelia island plantation recreation
amelia is trendy (hahha)
amelia is at north adams regional hospital
amelia island's newest golfing
amelia is cool (hahahaha)
amelia is awesome (hahahahahhaha)
amelia is curious (damn right)
amelia is found
amelia is a picturesque regional center 22km west of terni and 15km north of the town of orte
amelia is in 4
amelia is annoying and so are all the l/z shrines
amelia is a sophmore
amelia is a stretch
amelia is enough to make anyone feel happy (AWW. :P)
amelia is the second most popular pair when you are pairing up amelia with somebody
amelia is the youngest in the group
amelia is open 7 days a week
amelia is probably the most controversial of all the good guys in slayers
amelia is closed on mondays and chickahominy on wednesdays for maintenance
amelia is a couple of years younger than lina inverse
amelia is the spunkiest 12
amelia is often tagged with such undesirable names like
amelia is a total freak when it comes to her father philionel
amelia is one of amelia
amelia is always cause for celebration
amelia is now writing and teaching workshops in animal communication
amelia is a very beautiful maine coon ( maine coon, is a cat breed -_- mind you).
amelia is a must (yes, yes, yes, i know )
amelia is our
amelia is president of faces
amelia is the youngest of the slayers
amelia is a real pro (what can i say? HEHEHZ)
amelia is a fast growing and vibrant community with a lot of potential for the future
amelia is graphical
amelia is provided by queen city metro
amelia is a simple woman that enjoys the more simple life style
amelia is designed specifically to fit women from 4'10" to 6'; short top tube keeps you from
amelia is wasting away
amelia is also our liveliest
amelia is a friendly little tail
amelia is studying for a doctorate in business administration specialising in higher education at the university of bath
amelia is in love with him ( how did the internet know?! :|)
amelia is a person who wants to help ( 0=D)
amelia is the daughter of norene jacobson gonsiewski and tom gonsiewski and the sister of alex
amelia is on her way home today
amelia is seen here with her "uncle dana" king
amelia is what she will wear to her birthday party ? (uh .. huh?)
amelia is down in a position remote from travel by ships
amelia is the port of hampton roads
amelia is in each of them
amelia is out looking for a better life ( yeahhhhh)
amelia is very fuzzy
amelia is enchanting ( enchanting ame)
amelia is a member of the delta gamma sorority
amelia is a foreign entity to the residents on the island
amelia is actually two places in one
amelia is unaware of battles in which 200
amelia is located in northeastern pope county near the town of villard
amelia is now 10 years old
amelia is the only coupling that makes sense
amelia is clearly on her mind
amelia is a 'story'
amelia is florida's oldest surviving hotel
amelia is a comprehensive "home solutions" site created by brazil's second largest grocery group
amelia is located along the border of the airport
amelia is expected back sometime in october
amelia is now a much sought after child model and has appeared in numerous commercials including panadol
amelia is an innocent looking girl ( HE HEH HEHEEHHE =D)
amelia is seven when the book opens in 1969 at the very start of the present troubles
amelia is full of adventure ( =D)
amelia is a 36 foot rival
amelia is "the exceptional treatment i have received over the years
amelia is preparing to head up to the cold northeast to play at the lizard lounge
amelia is prince teran
amelia is preparing to leave
amelia is an example of "the american spirit" ( ok, not reallly american. but yeahhh hahaha)
amelia is to understand
amelia is a champion of justice
amelia is on a stagecoach deep in the arizona territory in april of 1879
amelia is also known to the berkeley community for her articles in the san jose mercury news
amelia is too busy chasing sheep
amelia is too possessive to send georgy to school
amelia is a princess (woo. hell yeahh. :D hahah)
amelia is in the garden of the grimaldi palace
amelia is horrified ( only when i find out horrible stuff.)
amelia is the only girl in all of nasel ( nasel?)
amelia island ( amelia island somehwere near usa)
amelia is my stepgm
amelia is a 15 ( shit. how they know. hahah)
amelia is streaking it from mexico

LMAO ok. some of the stuff correct also. =s so freaky :P

now. bye
<3,
Amelia.

Part two :D

This here is my dressing table. Not much of a dressing table actually, i hardly have space on it to put any more stuff anyway heh. But , i spend alot of time at this table. its a very important table to me. :D No chair as you guys have noticed. i usually pull the comp chair if i realllly had to sit and do things. =) next to the dressing table is my wadrobeeee :D

This is the space below my dressing table. It is also the place where i dump all the cables : my mobile phone chargers, camera chargers and stuff. Got a couple of sneakers that i've never bothered to wear ( im not a huge fan of sneakers you see, i prefer slippers and such) and a pair of boots i bought only because i had to go to korea and i had to get a boot. the pink little shelf there, first deck : hair products. =S second: Nails. nails nailsss. Third: random. haha

Here. is the view of my top place of the dressing table. Theres : tissue, hair products, lotions, combs, brushes, keychains, jewellery, face products, and other stuff as you can see. a year a go, this place wasnt as cramped. i cleaned it all up and the table was very very empty. :( now, i have to clean it up soon las. not now. cause of the mye. :S hahah god, i cant stand messy tables. :( but oh well, its my fault anyway.

I'll leave now. and might not blog for a week of so. i reallly have to study =0 but yes.

hi jason, gary and daphne and alex and becky :D thnks for tagging <33 <333 <333333 and all visitors (taggers and readers) THNKS for making the visitor count 11000+ already. HEHEHEHE this rocks.

<3,
Amelia.

// edit.

i LOVE this song. its so .... meaningfull. hahahahs -.-

Song : You Don't See Me.
Artist: Josie and the pussycats OR paris hilton (they're both the same actually.. but seriously, if paris really did sing this, i'll applaud her heh.)

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough

I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
And tumblin' and breakin'

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights

I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get

I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

ooh the messy part of my room :0 PART ONE

NOTE : ALL PICTURES IN THE BLOG. WHATEVER DAY YOURE TUNING INTO, IF YOU CLICK THE PICTURE, YOU SHALL SEE A BIGGER VERSION OF IT OKAIS?


My um. shelves . the first two sections consists of soft towns and handbags. (yes, your eyes do not deceive you. those are pikachu slippers. and no, i didnt just got them. got them a couple of years aago from wei ting i think as a bday present :D) the third is random files and boxes and empty planners. and the last. on the left hand side are filled with magazines. eg, dolly, sugar, teen vouge and such and on the other side more boxes and cds :DThe shelves by the side of the computer. first and most topest shelf consists of my brother's old school books. second : my old school books and files and papers. third: alot of scrap paper and files and old notebooks. fourth : my personal thingy where i dump my unwanted pencil boxes and exercise books and my wires. last : all the dictionarys and spare exercise books. :D


my lovely shelve by the side of my bed. :D on the floor, various bags. black - school bag, colourful - maths tuition, the dotted ones(actually are dogs) - malay tuition. by the side - spare bags :D and other books. (my school books to be exact. im so lazy to put it on the shelf where they belong and so, i dump them on the floor and when i need them i shall hunt.) moving on. my book shelf. all kinds of books. story books , romance / fiction / and everything you want. i got guy books, girl books and kids books. :D some comics too and dvds. also have boxes and stuff :D hehehehehs and if you see my the side on the right, got the plastic bags there. THTS MY PERSONAL plastic bag collection. dont diss ok. i got some cool ones there. HAHA.

BEFORE - 2005 end.

GOt the part two of this shit again. featuring my dressing table and under it hahahahah =) im very messsy bah and im lazy to clean up the mess and i dont want my maid to do for me. after she put the things where also i dunno =p
oh well..
good news tho : exams in threee days. hip hip hooray. and i still cant define what a fcuking enzyme is. maybe i shud just go jump off a tall building now. :(

and yes i see people taggin. <3 =D hahahhas. ok. i'll be going. toodles

<3,
the one and only.
Amelia lau.
crystal and see-thru and not enough to youuuuu.

lol

oh Alex. i SO get your point. thankew for pointing out that i cud us the media player. altho abit complicated :( i mean wtf is sync? -.- heh and i wake up at 8 in the morning and read your tags. lmao can. funny wah the way you point out things. haha and "its all a lie" crap is funny >< some of the comments were shit insulting but whatever man, it still made me laugh. HEHEHS. and surrreee we girls are more complicated. but you guys are even more. AND I CAN PROVVE IT!

Daphne, hahahahs. yeah all your points allso depressing yes =( lol.

Edwin, Do you think you treat me nice? hahahahah yeala, nice laaaa.

Esther , chocolate is a no no also. unless its 99% dark with no added sugar/ HAH! lol.

oh and HI jason yeo :P

ok, im going now. have to figure out the media players thingy. I DONT GET IT :(

<3,
Amelia

depressing shite.

I (Amelia) find alot of things depressing and i shall list them out.

1. not understanding guys. WHATS UP WITH YOU GUYS KAN? one minute its all "i like you" and the next you're all gushing abt that hot girl you saw. i mean. please ok even if you all were gushing abt that hot girl, dont do it straight to our faces ok. it hurts.
2. PEOPLE DISSING RAIN. like wtf is your problem kan? knn =p
3. depressing = hurting alot.
4. not bringing my examination pad to school.
5. studying.
6. missing someone badly.
7. being fat.
8. being short.
9. being not good at maths.
10. not being talented at anything.
11. spending an hour choosing a nail colour for your toenails. try every single colour you have but at the end you go back to the very first colour you tried.
12. not finding clothes for the occassion.
13. misplacing things. important things.
14. that time of the day.
15. when i have this bigass craving for junk food. and eating them and getting fat.
16. not having credit.
17. expensive phone bills and getting blamed for them.
18. stupid itunes not working and your stuck listening to the same old songs on your iPod for a month.
19. not having good ideas for layouts.
20. coming online and seeing noone tagging.
21. the guy you like never ever liking you back.
22. the guy you like liking your best friend.
23. the guy you like telling you that your best friend "is the hottest most prettiest most attractive the best girl in the world."
24. the guy i like makes me depressed the most.
25. being insecure sucks !@#$.
26. computer lagging.
27. the fact that ALEX is so good at computer :( =p HEHEHS
    
28. falling inluve with someone who confuses you all the time.
29. falling inluve with someone who just doesnt seem to be the right one.
30. falling inluve with the wrong person.
31. just falling inluve.
32. PEOPLE DISSING RAIN. like wtf is your problem kan? knn =p
    

and etc etc etc. i have lots ok. and they all suck.

i webcammed with my darling brother just now. was fun :D i miss you ko.

Noone taggin but its ok i dont blame you guys. since the exams are coming up =)

i love everyone whos nice to me. so whether or not i love you. think : are you nice to me? haha

ok bye my loves (only the nice ppl ><)

<3,
Amelia.
with you by my side.

//edit FUCK. i just found out someoneeeeeeee reads my blog. HAHAHA and so i deleted some things =) heh hehehehehez =D damnit. this is embarassssinggggggggggggggggggggg . ahhhhhhh. =)

:) exams in a week and three days. Hooray.

first off, diana. thanks for uh telling me you have the book. You MUST know. i dont like borrrowing books from people and that i rather buy my own and read it. so yes. i find it more enjoyable to read the book with no rush. and you can treat the book in whatever way you like. and fold the pages when i dont have a bookmark and stuff.

Im may not be able to blog as much now due to the upcoming !@##$$ exams. so im sorry ok? but i will be back la. dw. HEHES

imma go now cause im busy and i have tuition soon.

so. taa~

<3.
Amelia.

& he said, " i'll make you smile for the simple fact that i'm good at it. i'll make you smile, just so i can sit and look at it. (awww)