Just for the while.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY IRIS!
(becky's mom :))

MAY BOTH OF YOU HAVE WONDERFUL DAYS FILLED WITH SURPRISES AND EVERYTHING! :)

LOVELOVE,
AMELIA.

everyone else, i think i'll be gone for awhile. I'm.. not feeling right. And, i need to pin down my feelings and thoughts before i do anything.

I don't know how it gets better than this.

"To me, FEARLESS is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into freshman year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright... That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS" - Taylor Swift.

I'll BE RIGHT BACK. With a long post and tag replies and pictures. I'm just really swamped with work and am SO freaking tired. I just want to sleep and forget the world. My body aches, my mind hurts, the heart is confused. Yeah.

Lovelove,
Amelia.

This is a story of a girl.

OH! YAY FOR SUPER FAST INTERNET IN THE HOTEL! :) I will be blogging i suppose, not with pictures. That shall wait till I get back in Brunei! 

I'm in Vietnam btw, at Saigon right now and had a wondrous bowl of pho at midnight. Steaming hot with lovely beef slices and omygad. the soup! heaven. T_T The flight here was easy, one hour and a half? And half of the time I was trying to teach daddy dearest how to play Animal Crossing so that he could help me fish :) and then i can sell it off for money. Heh heh. But he didn't get the hang of it and he didn't want to see my house.. "waste of time" he said. But he did think the fishes and everything was extremely cute and he even tried to 'escape' my town cause it was somehow like a jail, apparently. wtf HAHA So he kept banging into the high cliffs and ask me, " what the hell do i do now?" -.- very cute :) The flight was delayed for about half an hour. It was all good.

My goodness, its so crowded in Saigon! Its like, SO many motorcycles. about 95%. and very so often you'd see a car, but it would probably be a taxi or something. While walking back to the hotel just now, we encountered an accident :( A girl got thrown off her motorcycle after crashing into another motorcycle. The guy was fine, but the girl lay motionless half her skin scrapped off her leg =x so scary. And its so freaky trying to cross these roads man, vehicles coming in from all sorts of directions. No traffic lights or people to direct traffic. its like, according to their free will man. 

But I love the atmosphere! its so.. nice. And busy! and yes. Okay, I'm gonna get some sleep now we're having an early start later. :D 

LOVELOVE

AMELIA!

But, I'm just a girl on a mission.

REPLIES!;
CHLOE ; hahaaha hi kaloweee :)
LINA ; I KNOW RIGHT! HI5! Her voice and facial expressions are so annoying.
ERIC ; I'll try? hehehe
SHIM ; yeap! in a couple of hours actually. hehe. And I know right ^_^ thanks. Although my entries weren't as um in depth as they should have been because I kinda forgot some stuff already. My memory fails me.
BECKY ; NO! *in denial* Its only this one time I think Blair's a little too much. I still am a huge fan of Blair's tho. hahahaha EXCUSE ME. what theresa. hahahaha
ALEX ; orly. why?

I'm not sure if the place that I will be staying at offers wireless.. so I'll wish all of you here first.

FOR THE 26th JANUARY 2009

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
GONG XI FA CAI!
GONG HEI FATT CHOY!!
SELAMAT TAHUN BARU CINA!
May all of you have a wondrous and prosperous new year :)

Yes. I have to go now and do all my last-minute packing. Then dinner at the airport and I'm off! See you guys in 5 days! ^_^ Don't forget to fill your tummies with all the CNY goodies and sweets! Screw all those calories for the meantime. Its a once-a-year thing yo! Even I'm going off my vegan thing for a week just for CNY. Hehehe

Oh, and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE WONG!
(although I doubt she visits my blog :S)

LOVELOVE!
AMELIA.

Sweet Darl'n..

This is my confession to the crimes of wanting you badly.
And darling,
If you're wondering..
Here's your answer.
Yes, I like you.
I don't love you..
I can't love you..
yet.

EEE! I love love love!! the song, Between the trees - Darl'n. The lyrics are just wonderful :) I love lyrics full of meanings. Or lyrics that makes sense to me because its what I'm currently feeling or have felt.

School was cancelled today because there still no electricity. And, Gadong is power-ed out. Bandar is fine though. I'm not sure bout Kuilap. This no-electricity business is bullshit. I was looking forward to going to school today! I had my outfit planned out, halfway through my nice sweet breakfast I receive a call from Jenny baby telling me school was cancelled. WHATTHEEFF. I was really looking forward to school :( I was planning to do so many things! Grr. SO angry.

So, since i was awake early, i finished off 90210 and Privileged. EURGH. the more I watch privileged, the more i want to kill Megan. Or slap her silly and steal Will away from her. Because, Will is such a hearthrob. HAHA but seriously. Megan is SO annoying. 90210 is better. I don't like Annie. But I think Silver is absolutely gorgeous especially since she's brunetter with super pretty blue (i think) eyes. So pretty :) Gossip Girl, I have to admit.. Blair was being a little too much this episode... but War is coming! exciting :D haha. And i LOVED Serena's dress at the opera! The yellow one? goodness, simply gorgeous.

btw REPLIES!;
SHIM ; HAH! I finished my CAS diary already and passed up already. So i'm free from that shit :D HEHE
BEN ; aiyo. how you know? :P
NAT; yeah, lucky you. :( hahaha

Had dimsum this morning at Lucky with the mother. Not that great anymore. Like,we had to send all our food back because they were all cold. -.- Annoying that. But the pandan pao was good.

I can go on more. Because I'm feeling extremely bothered and short-tempered. But I shan't. I am going to wallow in self-depression. And try finish some things because I'm flying tomorrow! Tomorrow!!! Time passes by so fast. I better pack everything quick. I am so lazy to think about what I need to bring. Eurgh. Talk about procrastination. And i bet there won't be school tomorrow again, which will be good because even if we did go to school, we won't be doing anything much tomorrow. And then I can't pack/go through everything before we leave. How i wish we were going off for more than 5 silly days. I wanna go for like 2 weeks or something. Screw school for the meantime. I'm so sick of it. :(

wow, from the beginning of this post. you can see how i change my moods oh-so-quickly. First, kinda happy about good songs, then gets angry about TV series (wow, talk about geekiness) and then angry about school and then about more school. Actually i think, if i ever go crazy and like jump off a building or like die. It might just be cause of school. and other little trivial matters that really do not matter but I always make them matter. And then i beat myself up over stupid little things that REALLY DO NOT MATTER. they don't matter amelia, they don't matter. fek. if they don't matter then why the hell do i care? T_T

before I leave, on a much much much lesser depressing note.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER LING! :)
Hope you're having a wonderful day in Melbourne (if I'm not mistaken) and best of lucks and happiness always! :)

Lovelove,
Amelia.

And you come away with a great little story,

of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you..

REPLIES!;
REUBEN ; hey! :) I linked you liao okay. your traffic got increase or not. hahaha
NAT ; actually 4. haha, my music teacher also has his birthday on the 19th.
ALEX ; hi!
CHLOE ; haha, yeah. Evil bunny. And you're having yummy sushi right now. *jealous*

Hello! :) yes, in relation to the very quick post just before this. I do absolutely LOVE ADORE LOVE Gardenia's Buttermilk buns! They're thickly filled with buttermilk. Oh goodness. I had 3 in one go this afternoon. It was good. IMPULSE EATING! Cause I was craving for em.. and I bought one. Then I bought two more, just in case. And it was goooood.

Then I was thinking, what else would I absolutely die for? JING CHEW PEANUT BUNS! Fresh out of the oven at 8am. Or 3pm. Oh dearlerd. Its the best ever. All piping hot or warm even. And like, the peanut (YES I AM AWARE I HAVE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE) is different. The filling is somehow more nicer.. yummier.. mmm... peanuts.......~

Anyway, Firstly..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM HANIF!
Legal yo! get that license and drive around to work out that body of yours. HAHA

So. Moving on. WE HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO FINISH UP FOR THE IB! its not even funny. ALl the freking deadlines and gah. Its so horrible. I think I might be starting to be a little scared :(
TOK ESSAY - FEB 11
BUSINESS IA - JAN 31
MALAY WL - FEB 5
MUSIC COMPOSITION - FEB 28 ( I THINK!)
MUSIC IA - ???????? (MUST FIND OUT)
MUSIC RECORDING - ??????? (MUST FIND OUT)
REAL EXAMS - MAY 4

Yeah. Sucks to be me. I agree with Denise. I really don't get how people claim to have a love-hate relationship with IB. I loathe the IB program. I do. *going out of my mind* Okay, not really. But you get what I'm trying to say. Maybe. DO YOU? ged.

OK. I have tons to do :( Flying off Friday night. I'm excited. I'm partially packed although I have not really researched the country properly yet. I need to do my homework soon! Not school homework cause well. okay. I also need to make a checklist to make sure I don't miss anything. I hope I don't miss anything. That'll be shitty.

OHYA. Half day off school today because of the powere-cutoff and HORRIBLE FLOODING EVERYWHERE LAH. My daddy told me 2 people have passed away from the floods???!! Wteff. Depressing shit. But more on the horrible weather soon. Its nearly 9 and I haven't done anything!! horrible.

hmm..

LOVELOVE
AMELIA!

I know what I'd die for.

Gardenia's Buttermilk buns.

One word: Heaven.

Also, Jing Chew's Peanut buns.

Oh, love is so sweet.

BRB! :)

I'm okay, honest.

You never did give a damn thing, honey.

But I cried, cried for you.
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you.

Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day. Every smile you fake is so condescending.
Counted all the scars you made.
Now that I'm sittin here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

lovelove,
Amelia.

For all the times,

REPLIES!;
YESMEAN ; I know right! haha
ERIC ; Hi smelly! NOT FLAWLESS OKAY :( you don't hate my skinzz. You love my skinzzz. don't lie. HAHA and definitely not flawless. I wish it was. bleh
DIANA ; heh heh, yeap. Abdomination of the evil rabbits ^_^
SHERYL ; hehe. karaoke. okay, thank you. HEHE so paiseh *blush*

BIRTHDAY WISHES! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOKO! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN! :)

and,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGNES! :)

I hope every one of you have a wonderful day filled with happiness and everything good. Best of luck for the new year and that everything goes according to plan for everyone ! :)

Lots of love,
AMELIA.

p/s blog tomorrow ;) today's all about birttttthdaaays.
And, BBQ + cake tonight! :D (had cake this morning... cake week this week. hahahaha)

It was a moment of weakness, you said.

REPLIES!;
BECKY ; yeah yeah.. theresa.... HAHAHA ♥
NAT ; thank you. exactly right, all our malay has degraded :(
MOSES ; hi! Yeah, sure I'll link you. Was gonna ask you where your url was but i guess, you've put it up already. I'll do that asap. And don't be lazy!! haha should read all the text ;)
CHRIS ; yeah, i went :P
ALEX ; of course amelia #1

HELLO! :) Okay. Picture overload here from Vivian's birthday thing last night :) it was a blast! Lovely company and good food and cake. It was a great night! I would say more, but I have to do other things. So I'll blog again soon. PICTURES FOR THE MEANTIME! :D

A big thank you to Vivian though, for a wonderful time at her place :)

With the birthday girl.

KALOWEEE :)

Jenny BABY! :)

Elaine (:

With German. haha

A-man arrived fashionably late.
Just in time for food actually.

With Adam and his crooked smile. Rawr

KENKEN and SHIMMY!

Emo Much?

No lah, all smiles :)

German obviously very excited about fire works.
And Alexis, "Wtf"
HAHAHAHAHA

Eh Shim, invasion of privacy can?

Christopher!

Soulmateeee *heart*

okay. This was like, pure coincidence okay, I was gonna change sides and stand next to Kalowee and Adam decides to jump in. Hence, bumping into me.
And here is me, having bounced off him. HAHAHA
If you get what I mean?????

there, a proper one :)

A-man!

The beginning of the EVIL RABBIT FACES...

New edition:
WITH OUR EYES CLOSED! :D

Kinda trying to get Vivian to do the EVIL BUNNY impersonation properly..

We tried.
Shim and Vivian fails at doing the evil bunny :(
Although, vivian would probably get more point cause she tried to do the ears.
HAHAHA

Farrrreeed with his mouth full of cake
HAHA

With Vivian's Cousins :)

Bring on the Kareoke!!! ( i dunno how to spell kareoke)
hahaha

Thatt's it for now :)
happy viewing. HAHAHAHAH

Lovelove
AMELIA!

And then, I felt the scrapes..

from a slippery subway grate.
oh, how you laughed at my complete lack of grace..
but i could not recall a more perfect fall,
cause when i looked up into your eyes..
it didn't hurt at all.

And I thought, Be still my heart.

Hello! :)

REPLIES!;
ERIC ; hahaha, i'm glad my evil bunny picture blew you away :( HAHA
DENISE ; I KNOW RIGHT! so freaking shitty. Eurgh. Yes, just gonna sparknotes everything :D hahahaha (:
ALEX ; unfortunately, yes. My malay is pretty bad :(
CHRIS ; hey ;)

Will be heading out in awhile for lunch with the other family :) and some jalan-jalan time. I'm in a good happy positive mood today. I woke up, and fell asleep again and had a rather odoubled dream. Speaking of dreams, I have been having really really weird dreams now a days. Like, freaky dreams. And I dream of people I have never seen before. mmm..

I was talking to Becky last night for a good 90+ minutes, and its times like this that I'm so grateful for friends like Becky. Or Chloe and Diana for that matter. and all you guys out there (don't have to mention all, - you know who you are.) :) You're the people who I know I can count on. The people who I know will stick with me through thick and thin. The people who simply accept me for who I am no matter how horribly flawed I am. The people who contantly forgive me for the things I screw up on. Or the times when I am a complete bitch. Its amazing how you guys can totally just put up with me. I know I'm not an easy person, but yet, you all are there. Just there whenever I need someone to cry to, to scream at, to rant at, to complain to.. to laugh with :) I know I'm like a complete nutcase most of the time, with my super duper horrible low-esteemed, perfectionism, indecisive, crazy-neurotic behaviour/chracteristics. I think each and everyone of you like deserves some kind of award. heh heh. I absolutely with no doubt love you guys to little bits and pieces. ♥ Know that I appreciate everything you guys do for me, or with me. Even when I do, at times seem unappreciative and like as though, I'm taking you guys for granted. I see people out there, and they're not even sure who their real-friends are with all these two-faced back-stabbing thing going around. I mean, you even see it in movies.. and books. Its so sad. I might not have that many real friends, but the few that I do know of, They're just enough. :) Everyday is worth making through because of you guys and I really don't know what I would be doing if I haven't met you guys. Cheesy, but thats the truth. Nothing but the truth.

Yeah, yeah. Got a little emotional there.

Just wanted to get that down.

Lots of love,
Amelia.

And I know we're gonna be fine.

And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time.
As long as we live, time passes by.
And we won't get it back when we die.

REPLIES;
JENN ; thanks baby :)
DIANA ; it does, doesn't it. and i love how she chose an outstanding colour as well that didn't match her dress one bit :P
NAT & ALEX ; Hello boys. HAHA
CHLOE ; good lah ;) rawr. now your stalkers can stalk more. HAHAH wtf

Tons of you guys were too lazy to comment on the tagboard but instead told me over the phone/over MSN. Haha. But yes :) glad to hear peoples comments and stuff.

SO, there wasn't school today and there's not gonna be school tomorrow! *yr 13s only i think~* :D our final english paper has been postponed to Monday because apparently there is some sort of electricity failure in school or something tomorrow. and Like, yeah. They postponed it! Which is good because it means I have more time to procrastinate: To read The Remains Of the Day by some japanese author. I've tried reading it like 4 times now. And I always get bored by the time i'm reading the 3rd or 4th page. Eurgh. Such a bore. And I can't find the DVD in Chong Hock!!! Gah. Didn't have school today because we didn't have any papers. So its all good :)

Business was shit. Literally and Maths 2 was alright, mediocre I would say. I would say, I failed my paper 1 but i wouldnt fail my paper 2. :) MALAY, or malay. My vocabulary was hideous that day. I forgot SO many words so I had to pretend to talk to myself, like to translate.

Example.
*thinks to my self* SHIT. How the hell do i say promise..
*says out loud* I promised him i'll buy him water.
*still saying out loud* Saya... saya.... hmm.. dia saya akan beli air untuk dia..
saya... saya....
mmm....
saya... JANJI!! JANJI!!
*quickly starts scribbling the word onto my paper*

Yes, it was pretty bad. I think Adam thought I was crazy or something (adam was sitting on one side, raudhah on the other, but i think dhah knows im crazy already) I forgot SO many words. It wasn't even funny. And i forgot what the word for abuse was and i never figured it out. So.... i used the word 'seksa' which doesn't even come close to abuse because 'seksa' means to torture. And, torture does not equal to abuse. Grr. And at some parts I even questioned myself if the words that were coming to my head were even real words. Like, 'PAKSA' which means force.. i spent 5 minutes questioning myself if it was a real word -.- gah.

No matter, no matter. Only one more paper. Only Remains of the day to read. Maybe i'll just go through sparknotes and memorise some names -.- mmm...

Had sushi at Kaizen today! Very good. Ive been craving for Sushi since forever. It was good to have some for lunch *beams*

In exactly one week, I'll be flying off again! :D I'm SO excited for so many things! Food especially, and maybe some bargaining. Although, i'm completely hopeless at bargaining, I like watching my mom bargain. She does it so well. Like, sometimes even I'm convinced she doesn't want to buy the item anymore. and like..

Example:

*Mother hardcore bargaining*
"Girl, walk away. We don't need this crap"
*starts to walk away- I'm getting worried* But ma... I really want that thing!! Just pay whatever lah!!
"walk away. other places also got."
"NO!!! Other places sell different 0_0"
...
And 95% we usually get called back to the shop and end up buying whatever we were bargaining for at the price that WE want. So.. its all cool. Its no where fancy shmancy. Although the real plan was to go down to Switzerland. :( But I couldn't miss too many days off school. The minimum I would have missed would be nearly 2 weeks and I can't afford that now. Eurgh. School. blah. But this place, although not the best.. is somewhere new! And I have been wanting to go there for awhile now.

Ah, I love travelling ♥

Nothing beats going to new places.. foreign languages, different kind of cultures.. food.. shopping! :) and pictures.. the excitement of walking in unfamiliar roads.. towns.. cities.

Speaking of which, just yesterday, my mom made excellent vegetable curry for dinner! It was SO YUMMY albeit being a tad bit spicy. But goodness, it was mmm~

Incase you were wondering, I have not touched meat in nearly 2 weeks! *beams* AHAHAHA. My dad is so against it though. He blames my pimples, my hair dropping and nearly everything on my not-touching-meat act. Everytime i complain about something he'll say this. "SEE! Don't eat meat lah. See what happens."

(-.-)"
No comment.

But yeah. :P Here's some pictures from school yesterday. :) tons of super vain ones of me and Kalowee! ^_^

Kaloweee~

Goodness T_T I want to be able to do like "puppy-dog" eyes so much! I fail at that department. Also fail at my "innocent" face. It looks a little like this as well. And this is my apparent "puppy-dog" eyes.
See, Kalowee does it well. You would give Kalowee a balloon but not me right? :(
I just look like I'm constipated or something. -.-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Us trying the "act-cute-so-KAWAIIIIIIIII pose"
Obviously, we fail. (more me than Kalowee)
I can't even do the peace sign properly. Grr

^_^
EVIL BUNNY IMPERSONATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(c) or is it (r). whichever :P

Yeah. Lousy competitive people playing Mario Karts.

Farreeeeed.

Business Buddies!
Its funny cause he sits betweens us in Business class and we talk about everything T_T

Vivian wins again.
Ranjit is very depressed.
He lost to vivian 3 times in a row or something.
HAHAHAHA
(they were very passionate about the game as well. Cursing and cursing and laughing and cursing and "I WIN! I WIN!!!")

Fareed showing off -.-

YES. OKAY I shall go now :)

OH OH. Before though, HAVE U GUYS WATCHED GOSSIP GIRL?! :) and Privileged and 90210? ) I have. HEHE. All to the latest episodes. and been watching some Saturday Night Live (SNL) episodes as well. Funny as hell. HAHA

Okay, gonna go watch a movie now.

LOVELOVE!
AMELIA!